第1640日。阴天。
请不要怪我取个这么俗的标题，呵呵。
其实若不是因为溏心风暴，我还真没想到用blog来写些东西给你。其他人如kennysia之流写了三四五年了，我却才刚开始。（你没看过溏心风暴吧？你走的时候都戏还没开拍呢！）
好久都没有给你写东西了，不过我还在学习如何做Biscotti，并没有搁下，虽然最近课程有点繁忙。
去了一趟咖啡屋，点了一杯曼特宁，但是喝下去感觉却不一样了。开始时我问侍应是不是拿错了，然后再去问店主是不是泡错了；得到的答案是100%曼特宁，外加一个“你到底有没有喝过mandheling”的眼神。
原来并不是所有的咖啡屋的曼特宁都是同一种味道的，虽然苦涩的味道大同小异，但就是好像少了什么似的。可能是咖啡豆放少了，水的温度不对了，我也说不出是什么原因。也有可能是心情不一样了。也有可能是因为我还没习惯喝曼特宁的时候没有你的笑声。
我发觉我把所有事情都想得太理所当然了，就好像现在mamak的roti telur并不是理所当然的像以前有大葱的，加大葱的附加费是20sen。
人与人，除了亲情，其他的感情也不是理所当然的，你说是吗？
我看着身边的人都在忙着facebook，friendster，msn 等等的网络通讯，爱情啊，友情啊什么的都靠这些虚拟的网络维持着。Comment来Comment回，基本上就只是几秒的时间，前提是如果大家都在网上的话。
可是，感情这东西有时像葡萄汁变成葡萄酒一样，需要时间的酝酿与发酵。
可惜网络上的facebook和msn太快了，少了时间的酝酿与发酵，因而累积的情感，来得快，去得也快。
或许，是我落伍了吧，在这个科技时代，谁还会再用笔写信交朋友啊。可是我就是喜欢写在纸上的字迹，比那些电脑荧幕上的虚拟字体多了份真心。
你也是吧？不然我们也不会因为传字条而开始。而你最后留给我的那封信我还留着，虽然到现在我还是非常讨厌信末的那五个对不起，也不再说对不起，顶多是用无关痛痒的sorry代替。
但是最近我却不得不用了那个字眼，为了一场误会，为了不成理由的理由，为了还人情；他们并不像我习惯了寂寞，他们需要朋友，尤其是女生；也亏得他们一起来向我“逼宫”，egoistic那种鬼话都说出来了，我才发觉那几个女生对他们的重要性，呵呵。都是男人啊，我都明白的，所以我也只好成全他们，免得断了他们的路，也算还了他们平时载送我这个无车阶级的情份，也算互不拖欠。
V刚刚凌晨才来找我哭诉了，乱七八糟的两三个小时，才让她的男友给带走。我那狗窝还真的是避难所啊，男啊女啊都有。J那条粉肠前几天来说与他的雌分了，硬是跟我劈了两打啤酒，丫的，害我想消一消我的啤酒肚都不行。总之有欢喜，有悲伤，有忧愁，有悲伤，甚至暧昧的，到单恋的到有。 他们的人生真是多姿多彩到台湾的偶像剧都可以来跟我取材了。
其实啊，我真的不知道人伤害人的理由到底是什么。而感情却是个双面刃，想伤害别人的永远都会伤到自己。七伤拳听过了吧，所以还是少碰为妙啊，你说是吗？
喂，问你个问题，我是个很不负责任的人吗？
我一向都觉得我不是一个胆怯的人。自从我八岁克服怕鬼的心理后，我觉得我并没有什么怕的，没有什么不敢做的。但竟然有人说我是个懦夫，说我不敢面对自己的感情，说我害怕感情，说我是一个不肯负责任的人，还有一些有的没的。我当时发神经大声地回了句说，不是我不肯负责任，而是我想负责任的机会没有了。
我想，我的语气是重了些。
五月天--你不是真正的快乐。
紫菱啊，可能假面戴得多了，我好像真的失去了感觉了。
唉，别说这些烦人又没结果的事。
你知道吗，记忆这东西虽然有时比想象中糟得多，但有时却好得出乎你想象。
我想，可能是因为我不能再见到你，所以很多关于你的记忆都非常的清晰。
就像视障人士因为看不见所以听觉比一般人敏锐，而听障人士因为听不见所以视觉比一般人敏锐的道理一样。
哎，我在语无伦次了。
不知曾几何时，我的脑海就一直在数着日子，我想并不是我刻意的去记得吧，acca那么多乱七八糟的东西都够我受了。
我的理由是，可能读会计的对数字比较敏感吧！
原来你已经离开1640天了啊！刚好四年半了。
天阴阴的，cybercafe里全都是玩L4D的咖。等下可能会下雨吧！
1640，不知道magnum4D 会开这个号码吗？呵呵。
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Summer April
This post comes a bit late because it supposed to be up like in the middle of March.
But before I knew it, it's already April.
Ya, today is 1 April 2009. 60 days more to ACCA Examination. Well this is just a reminder for myself in case i forget about it.
Things that happen during March for your info:
Projek Warga.
My 1st presentation project in 3 years ever since I join ACCA eventhough I am not doing the presentation on stage. Given an opportunity to deal with Bahasa Malaysia for the 1st time after like more than 6 years because the language used is BM.
It reminds me of my older days. It reminds me of my first public appearance on stage when I was 6; my 1st story-telling when I was 7; my 1st public speaking experience when I was 11. And also my 1st drama appearance when I was 14.
When I looked at my friends practising prior to the competition, it brought back a lot of my memories when I was still very young.
Well, I realised I was actually a very active boy last time. LOL.
Progress Test 2.
Normal routine of Sunway ACCA. Nothing special about it.
Sunway ACCA Nite.
Attend for the 1st time during my 3 years in Sunway. My last similar event was the Asean Dance. Everyone around me was, to some extent, quite high on that night. In the midst of the shouting and cheering, I realised I no longer feel excitement anymore.
激情过后，一切总归平淡。
Mr. Goh singled me out to tell me that all my good frens are not my true fren today. Haha. It seemed that my frens' prank din work out the way they wanted.
Major Arcana. The Hanged Man, XII.
This is the card that I picked long time ago. So long that I even forget that this is my fate.
Today is April's Fool day. So i think it's ok to be a fool today.
Happy April's Fool Day!
But before I knew it, it's already April.
Ya, today is 1 April 2009. 60 days more to ACCA Examination. Well this is just a reminder for myself in case i forget about it.
Things that happen during March for your info:
Projek Warga.
My 1st presentation project in 3 years ever since I join ACCA eventhough I am not doing the presentation on stage. Given an opportunity to deal with Bahasa Malaysia for the 1st time after like more than 6 years because the language used is BM.
It reminds me of my older days. It reminds me of my first public appearance on stage when I was 6; my 1st story-telling when I was 7; my 1st public speaking experience when I was 11. And also my 1st drama appearance when I was 14.
When I looked at my friends practising prior to the competition, it brought back a lot of my memories when I was still very young.
Well, I realised I was actually a very active boy last time. LOL.
Progress Test 2.
Normal routine of Sunway ACCA. Nothing special about it.
Sunway ACCA Nite.
Attend for the 1st time during my 3 years in Sunway. My last similar event was the Asean Dance. Everyone around me was, to some extent, quite high on that night. In the midst of the shouting and cheering, I realised I no longer feel excitement anymore.
激情过后，一切总归平淡。
Mr. Goh singled me out to tell me that all my good frens are not my true fren today. Haha. It seemed that my frens' prank din work out the way they wanted.
Major Arcana. The Hanged Man, XII.
This is the card that I picked long time ago. So long that I even forget that this is my fate.
Today is April's Fool day. So i think it's ok to be a fool today.
Happy April's Fool Day!
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