Can U Hear Me?

第2485日

2011-08-01T20:09:00.002+08:00

秋天又悄悄地来了，虽然天气还是这么地热。

你还好吗？呵呵，我也不知道为什么每次写给你的东西都那么的例牌，有时候习惯了就真的改不过来了。

想跟你说，天杀的acca终于给我考完了，我已经是affiliate了。你知道吗，成绩公布的那天，天知道我那天的工作是怎么做的。到了晚上回到酒店，我一直都在refresh我的邮箱，当终于看到accaglobal的来信，我又开始犹豫该不该去click它。我怕呀，我怕我又食言了，我怕我答应你的东西我做不到呀。其实当初看你考得时候一张一张的过，也不见得有什么难处，可是为什么轮到我的时候那道坎却像是无法逾越，还好最后我过了，虽然迟了两年。

毕业典礼那天，我的家人朋友都有出席，拍了几张照片，你应该都会看到。毕业那天，我的心情很奇怪，我明明等了今天很久，但是当天，我却没有过分的喜悦，心里空空的，总觉得少了点什么。那一霎那，我发觉原来，在我一直期望能赶快考完的同时，我竟然不希望我能这么快就考完。

很矛盾对吗？我也是这么觉得，因为人的本身就是个矛盾体呀！

你知道吗？前几天，有个人跟我说，我不会照顾女生，不是个绅士。只是很简单的一句话，我觉得我那天一定是鬼上身，不然我也不能解释为什么我会发脾气，毕竟，我自认我是个很能控制自己情绪的人，再也不是当初把心情写在表情上的那个小屁孩了。世界上，又有哪个是不戴着面具，每天在舞台上饰演着另一个角色呢？只有你，乔装术这么炉火纯青，我怎么都找不到你的面具。

其实我很认同她这句话的，我真的不会照顾人。因为你一直都很独立，没有任何事情是你做不到的，任何事都是你护着我，宠着我。也正是因为我不会照顾人，所以我才会到你被送入荣总的时候才知道你的病情。

有时候，我会想，如果你不是那么独立，如果你软弱一些，也许我也不会那么粗心大意，我真的很不称职。其实，应该怪我，我那时混得那么差，那么不让人省心，连想做顿饭给你惊喜都会烧焦，我怎么会让你放心呢？呵呵，你那整天掉筷子的习惯，是配合我，让我不那么难堪吧！

其实，我想告诉你，我现在做饭再也不会烧焦了，已经有能力去照顾别人了，呵呵，可是你却不给我这个机会了。

总之，那天我发了蛮大的脾气，当然，我坚持那是鬼上身，不然都很难做出一些自己都不明白的事情来。更加让我觉得鬼上身的是，隔天早上醒来，我发现我脸上都是泪痕。我真的没有哭，我那么坚强的一个人怎么会哭呢。那些都是鬼上身后的化学反应。

为了驱鬼，我找了klang附近的朋友出来--吃火锅。我的驱鬼法另类吧！但真的有效！那晚，我们喝着中国茶，开着炉，夹着海鲜猪肉蔬菜打牙祭，诉说着当年轻狂。没有喝酒，但当晚我们行径却有如醉了一般。那晚是我这几年来最真诚的大笑，我知道的，跟我平时戴着小丑面具的笑是不一样的，因为我那晚笑的时候，两边脸颊竟然流下两行清凉的东西。我急忙把它们随风挥走，害怕我的朋友会看到，因为那是驱散思念鬼的附属品。

说真的，我被鬼上身了很多年了，我也驱散了它很多年了。但是，原来，鬼也会进化的。我每一次驱散它，它都会有办法潜伏在我身体里，而且还会升级，升级成思念寂寞鬼。而被这种鬼上身有一些常见后遗症，那就是会无端端的在不哭的情况下流泪，而且会在发作时引发心悸，就算吸了整包烟都可能于事无补。但是，最痛苦的并不是这些后遗症，而是你不能把你被鬼上身的事与别人说，别人会认为你危言耸听，因为思念与寂寞是无法分享的。

看到这里，你又会觉得我的瞎掰功力不减当年吧！

去年今日此门中，人面桃花相遇映红，人面不知何处去，桃花依旧笑春风。

紫菱啊，我曾经听人说过，当你不能够再拥有，你唯一可以做的，就是令自己不要忘记。所以，真的不是我不遵守诺言不肯放下，可能我还没有遇到能让我分心去忘记的人。所以，你要赶紧保佑我啊，让我遇见那个人，不然我又要整天食言了，好吗？

没有林紫菱的日子

2010-12-20T21:57:00.002+08:00

第2250日。雨水纷飞。

也许是雨天，也许是秋末冬初，我突然想写东西给你。

你知道吗？我爸昨天进院，今天开刀动手术。医生说过这次是个小手术，但我的心却异常烦躁。我发觉原来我还是这么懦弱，原来我还是这么胆小。我很害怕不知结果的等待，在命运的强大压制下，我显得脆弱。今早一进公司，我就拼命控制我的脸部神经来保持微笑，大声说笑，不能有片刻的安静。因为我知道如果我不这么做，我会撑不过我爸动手术的这几个小时。

看到这里，我知道你又会说这是我懦弱的表现，但是我不会反驳你，呵呵。

上天菩萨保佑，我爸手术平安，虽然会有些晕，间中还有呕吐，医生说是麻醉药的副作用，但是总算是平安度过。

其实我今天本来有8小时，上星期申请的time-off，但是我却没有拿假，因为我姐有回来，但是更大的原因是因为我自认无法再面对在手术室外等候的煎熬。

我害怕会像上一次一样，看着医生从手术室里出来，摇着头的样子。医生永远不会知道，他那天除了宣布了你的离去，也让很多个心被判了无期徒刑。

呵呵，老话重提，你在那边过得还好吗?

如果你那边有四季之分，现在应该是你最喜欢的季节吧？望着满天飞雪，看着口中呼出的热气，雪人丛堆，木建的cabin, 门前两幅对联，复古式暖炉，一壶温热的碧螺春，典型的“紫菱式”中西合璧。你在那边的场景应该是这样的吧？虽然我总认为有些格格不入，呵呵。

其实，天空之上的世界是否真的如你所说的那么美好？真的没有泪水吗？如果是真的，那你真的很自私。不过我知道你又会说，在这世界上呀，总是会有人走的比较慢，有人走的比较快；而你是走得快一点的那一个，我则是走得慢一点的那个。

但是，我不甘心啊！凭什么你总是快的那一个呢？你比我快来到这个世界，每次走路的时候总是比我快一小步，表白的时候也是你先我后；你做每件事情都先我一步，急先锋称号你当之无愧。即使你离开后，我还是追赶不上你的步伐。我报考的会计专业考试，到现在都还没有大功告成，如果是你的话，恐怕早就是affiliate了吧，毕竟你那时还只剩那最后两张paper了。

呵呵，我很失败吧，你想做的东西，我到现在都还没有完成一样。你不会怪我吧？

你知道吗，我其实很多个晚上都会梦到你。不是我不想遵守诺言去忘了你，而是很多时候，我都是很平静的做着一些很简单的东西，吃饭喝水睡觉，然后就会很疼痛的想起你，真的很疼，疼得我吸了整包烟都会疼。很多时候，明明已经告诉大脑不要在梦见你，但是你却不可思议的出现。很多时候，早上醒来发觉自己在哭，但我知道我不是伤心，而是从梦境回到现实，中间有一道必须跨过的裂缝；如果不流出眼泪，我便无法跨过。

其实，是你在搞怪，对吧？你在那里寂寞了，在想我，对吧？

可是，你寂寞了，我却更寂寞。而且，我发觉寂寞这个东西，不是和朋友出来喝几杯酒，ktv唱几首快歌就可以消去的。而且，寂寞真的不能说出口，只能深埋心中，因为到头来，当我发现，寂寞是无法与人分享时，我只会得到更绝望的寂寞。呵呵，你又会在说我瞎掰了。

紫菱，很多时候，我都在想，如果你没有来到星加坡，如果我们没有相识，如果你能早一个月回到荣总，结果会是怎样？

但是，佛说前世五百次回眸，才换来今生擦肩而过。我相信，我们前世一定回眸超过一千次。我永远都不会忘记，那个雨天，我彷徨失落的坐在路肩，你撑着扇，静静地站在我身边为我挡雨。从今以后，不会再有人可以给到我那时候的感觉。

最值得保存的留恋，并非是没有皱纹的皮肤，而是没有皱纹的想念。

The Fake

2010-06-12T09:16:00.004+08:00

They always said, "Actual doesn't always goes according to plan."

Well, that perfectly fit the Malaysia plan which comes every 5 years.

For the past 50 years, we have 9 Malaysia plan in total. But without me elaborating further more, we all know the plan thingie is more like a formality, something you will need to present every year, but it is of no much use. Just like the LAN subject, Moral Studies. We did it for the sake of doing it and until now I still don't know why I need to stay in the library from 9 am to 9pm on a fine friday, and carried on till 1 am in the foyer just to finish up the presentation. And I don't even do that for my ACCA subjects!

So, I presume "Malaysia Plan" = "Lan Subject".

But I personally feel Lan Subject was of greater use than the Malaysia Plan, because at least the Lan Subject can bring us joyful moment during the completion of project, orphanage visit, etc, but the Malaysia Plan only give us PAINFUL moment.

You are given beautiful promise every beginning of five years, just to realise it's in vain at the end of the five years. Not painful meh?

You are given 9 Malaysia Plan in total up to date, just to be told that you might go bankrupt in 2019. Not painful meh?

You are promised with a growing GDP since the 1970, just to realise that in 2010, we are actually not much better than our very good neighbour, Indonesia. Our not so good neighbour, Singapore, already ahead of us don't know since when. Not painful meh?

So, do you agree with me that we have to endure the painful moment every 5 years?

Today is 2010. And it's time for 1oth Malaysia Plan to be on the stage.

Do you think you still can anticipate anything from the Plan?

I would rather anticipate which country will win the World Cup.

Thus, I really could not understand why I hear so many people discussing/debating about the Plan, on TV, on newspapers, on radio, in pasar, in coffee shop, etc.

It is because no matter how perfect the whole Plan is, it would be futile in the end! It's better for us to discuss who will win in the next general election.

And yes, you might say there is a change for better in this 10th Malaysia Plan. You might say, at least there were no compulsory 30% Bumiputra shareholding for listed companies mah.

But, if you look carefully, the wording is something like this, "In 2015, Bumiputra shareholding should at least reach 30%." At of course, this wording is being made more beautiful and more acceptable to all people by saying, "This aim should be archieved with more transparency and based on meritocracy."

Talking about transparency and meritocracy in a country like Malaysia. Am I hearing a joke or what?

Because if we really want to practise transparency and meritocracy, do you know how many "RELATED-PARTY-COMPANIES" need to close shop? And how many people need to sell air syrup and mee goreng in pasar malam as a result?

If Malaysia could really practise transparency and meritocracy, we will not have a close door policy after the 1998 economy crisis and stupidly fix the forex rate at 3.80. If Anwar did not go against Mahathir and propose strongly to borrow funds from IMF and let those rotten related-party-companies to collapse, Anwar could still hold on to his Finance Minister post. The famous 'Sodomy' case will not happen. There would not be PKR also. And sorry Najib, you would probably have to wait a few years more before you could be the prime minister.

And most importantly, if we really want to practise transparency and meritocracy, what would be the reaction of Ibrahim Ali and his army PERKASA? They would probably create a big riot man!

The 10th Malaysia Plan still promises sweet candy, aiming at economic growth of 6%, an increase of 12.8% for both internal and external private investment, incentive for foreign talent, etc etc.

But, without changing the stubborn and bloody narrow mindset of certain group of people who made up nearly 70% of population of Malaysia, we could not archieve any breakthrough. We would probably going in a vicious cycle, round and round to the starting point every 5 years. And we seriously could go bankrupt in 2019 when there were no petroleum income to feed those hungry ghost anymore.

So, if there isn't any change, if PERKASA is not eliminated, the 7th, 8th, 9th, 10th Malaysia Plan would always be the same.

"Same BULLSHIT! "
(Famous quote from Ibrahim Ali)

Superman, Batman, Spiderman and 1Malaysia

2010-01-10T12:15:00.006+08:00

Every Prime Minister of Malaysia got their own slogan/tagline. That's 1 of the way to show their own unique presence, to differentiate themselves from the previous Prime Minister.

During the satay-Mahathir days, we had the passionate 'WAWASAN 2020'. I still remember seeing those colourful posters, advertisements as well as partriotic songs during my primary school days. The then government portraited 'WAWASAN 2020' so real that I believe that it will be the reality in 20 years time. I'm once fascinated by the high-speed bullet train which I saw in 1 of the colourful posters. Back then, I always thought, what so great about US and those developed western countries? We will be at the same level too, in 20 years time, of course. Well, I was too young and too naive that time to believe something like that. Ehem, it's normal I think. Just like all of us once believe that 'Superman', 'Batman' and 'Spiderman' really exist in this world. Don't deny, everyone has its younger days.

So, it's 2010 now. Soon it'll be 2020. When China has introduced its 341km/h train, Malaysia has just imported 4 second-hand diesel train of speed 80km/h for RM30mil. And soon, I will have to painfully accept the fact that Malaysia Bullet Train remans as a fantasy. Yes, just like the facet that Superman actually doesn't exist.

Then, we had blah-la-la Pak Lah trying his hardest in the effort of OPPOSING CORRUPTION, soon after he had won the 11th General Election. To solve a problem, we usually set up a committee. So Anti-Corruption Agency a.k.a SPRM is set up. But it proved that to cut off the root of all evil in the government required more determination and preserverance than what Pak Lah equiped of. Look at the result. Malaysia's corruption ranking had fallen to 56, from 47 last year. We were ranked 23 in 1995 and today, we fell to the lowest ranking. We are moving backwards with SPRM. How could the ranking fall even after they have 'done so many' and put in so much of manpower and resources?

It appears to be the lack of political commitments. More and more cases are lieft unsettled while those cases brought to court ended up in loss. Where are the big fish that SPRM claimed? Please pardon my ignorance as I did not see any significant effort in countering corrouption.

Even if there is, it would probably be SENSITIVE and SECRETIVE, just like the landslide case.

What about V.K.Lingam's case? What about PKFZ scandal? And most importantly, what about mysterious death of Teoh Beng Hock? I use the word 'mysterious' and you know why. I do not want to end up like Mr. Lim Guan Eng. It has come to a point that we could not voice out our concern, we are banned from speculation, even if the truth is so obvious.

And all of us know, these cases will soon be entering the cooling period. And soon they will fade off because there are too many other issues arise that require our attention. GST, sugar subsidy, stolen engin, etc and etc. The government view all Malaysian as good citizen because of the 'nilai-nilai murni' or cultures such as forgetful and forgiveful. Every year, we will tell each other 'maaf zahir batin', and then every 5 years, we will forget all the bad that the government have done and voted them again.

These are the core values of a good citizen in Malaysia. And we are being treated like a small kid.

"Weep no more, boy, here is your little candy," said the Government.

Now, 2010. c4-maN-AJIB's Greatest Hits, "1MALAYSIA".

I wonder, what does 1Malaysia mean? I always thought it means '1Malaysia for all Malaysian'. But my rational again reminds me to grow up and don't believe in 'Spiderman' anymore. Marvel's heroes only exist in fantasy world.

Because, if 'great minds think alike', lol, then this tagline/slogan is super duper behind time again, for like 45 years.

In 1964, the then Secretary-General of PAP, Mr. Lee Kuan Yew once introduced 'Malaysian Malaysia'. This has stirred up a huge and violent consequence and resulted in the permanent separation of Republic of Singapore from Federation of Malaysia. I bet the 'Singaporean Singapore' now will be greatly relieved that they are OUT from the Bermuda Triangle that all Malaysian are going around now.

Ok, I am a coward and to prevent myself being ISAed or burnt for 'playing with fire' like what Mr. Lim Kit Siang had done in 1999, I will make the following statement: Mr. Lee Kuan Yew's 'Malaysian Malaysia' is different from Mr. Najib's '1Malaysia' because Mr. Lee opposed Article 153 of the Constitution of Malaysia. Err, somemore, I myself personally super support Article 153 lo.

Alright, abit out of topic. What I am trying to say is '1Malaysia' is just another propaganda, tagline, slogan and 'candy' for them to gain back their votes in the coming 13th General Election. And this propaganda isn't cheap as professional image designers are hired to make this a successful brainwash, using taxpayers' money of course.

Sorry people, for I know it's cruel to wake you all up from this beautiful sweet dream, but this is life and we do not live in the fantasy world like what the government trying to create. I feel super sad also when I first realised that my bullet-train is in vain. All the Christian out there, I also feel your pain when you wake up from your peaceful dream to learn that your churchs were burnt down.

To face the reality is super hard I know. Just like it took me very very long like 10 hours to realise that I am actually short, ugly and could not get a girl friend like Megan Fox.

The same goes to all the Malaysian. Malaysia is turning 53 years old this year, and we are all super grown up liao. Don't you think it is high time that we wake up to face the fact that 'Superman', 'Batman', and 'Spiderman' and all other upcoming Marvel's heroes only live in fantasy world while we are living in reality?

It took us super super long like 52 years to go through the 1969 Riots, 1971 New Economic Policy(NEP), Keris High-Five, Little Indian Temple, Chinese Squatters and the most recent Flaming Church. Sorry to say this, we actually know very well that there is a BIG DIFFERENCE between us:

You can spit out all kind of racial remarks and make all kind of disgusting gestures and only be suspended for a mere 1 year; but a gentle voice of mine or a Negarakuku song of mine would make me ended up in deep shit, jailed and even have to escape to other country.

You can have your demonstration openly and approved by the PM and shouted out loud loud for mere matters like translation of the name of GOD/Tuhan/etc, but I could not have my peaceful and romantic candle-light gathering for freedom of speech.

Therefore, YOU and ME know freaking well that YOU are DIFFERENT from ME. After numerous incidents, we already accepted the cruel fact that fair rights could not be given to all of us. So, please do not spent more money and effort on these futile slogans or taglines, just like those incomplete government project and white elephants. The word is 'ACTION speaks louder than all kind of SLOGANS'.

I would be happier and more grateful that you use all those money spent on these futile projects to subsidise the sugar of my teh tarik at the mamak stall or the water that my 'SLK'(Small Little Kancil) drink at the petrol station.

No matter how loud you shouted the slogan/tagline, no matter how sweet the little temporary 'candy' you give, we all are mature enough to realise the ugly truth behind all these as we are no longer small kids that believe in Superman anymore.

The TRUTH is, I always thought that I am a bloody racist, but, there are always people out there who are very much worse and more low life than me.

A Letter To Jasper

2009-10-28T19:15:00.003+08:00

Dear Jasper,

Firstly, Welcome To This World!

I am not sure whether you will be chinese or english educated, so I guess I would just use the international language since you are gonna live in Singapore at least for quite sometime and so it is impossible for you to dislike english, like me.

Ok, probably now I dont hate English, because now most of the time I had no choice but to use it. But last time when I was young, I really hate English. I always questioned why I had to learn 3 languages when people all around me just used 1 language plus a dialect. Because I am chinese-educated, i seldom got the chance to use english, and so I disliked it because by studying 1 more language means I got 1 less slot for play time. Therefore, my English sucks, and so next time when you grow up, I suggest you to use chinese when talking to me for better communication.

You would probably ask me, why you still learn it when you hate it? My answer would be, this is not like a survey questionaire where you can put a tick beside your favoured language. No box, all are under *required field. In other words, you got no freedom. But you are lucky because the place that you are living in, your *required field is only 2 languages. I dont think you would want to choose BM which is so damm useless in the country that you are staying in. Even for me, I regret for putting so much effort in BM when I was younger because it got no other use now unless for cursing.

No matter what, my advice to you is have a good command of English, because with it, you are 1 class higher. I dunno why, but the whole world think like this. And please do not hate chinese like some singaporean. Not because you will have a hard time talking to me, it is because no matter what, you are still a chinese. Your skin colour cant change to 'angmor' white. The person that I know of changing his skin colour is no longer living in this world but he is very influential and so you will sure find out who is him. 1 clue for you, he can be linked to Mr. Armstrong.

And if you can, please go and learn more languages. Japanese, Korean, French, Spanish, Italian...etc. You may say it's useless to learn so many languages but trust me, they will come in handy as you would never know who you gonna curse or court. Ok, maybe you can dont learn Italiano because Italian used hand signals most of the time. Not because they cant speak, I think because of their culture. You cant expect the GodFather to talk so much during gunfight rite?

But you do not need to worry about languages for now as you only can communicate using 1 language, which is to CRY. You cried to annouce that you have arrived to this world; you cried to tell your parents that you are hungry; you cried when you sense that there is danger in order for the adult to put you to safety.

I suddenly realised, there is no clue to show that life can be joyful. Laughter is useless after all. Human are easily depressed. 10 good things that happen in the day couldn't compensate a bad news received at night before you sleep. Even when 10 friends praised you, you would still feel sad after a stranger scolded you as stupid pig. Our happiness is not long-lasting, nor it is firm and solid. But, sad and misery were crucial for our living. Imagine if our ancestors living inside the cave are always so happy and joyful that they neglect the danger of the predators camping outside the cave, then I guess they could not live long gua. Therefore, joy and happinesses are nothing but just a trick that we played on ourselves. Well, if you want to argue about this, do it after you have seen any new born babies that come to this world along with laughter.

Jasper, as you grow up, you will find out that we like to create something that we hate it.

Example, 'Monday'. Monday is the indication of the end of vacation, the start of work and study.

We created Monday ourselves, and then we hate it. But if you ask me, since we hate it so much, why dont we let it come only once a month?

Well, Jasper, I think I could not answer this question.

We also created this thing called 'COMPETITION', which will make us unhappy. I know, there is a need for competition. Just like the gazelle being eaten up by the leopard because it runs slower, the shorter plant could not enough sunlight compared to the taller plant, etc. But these are just the basic law of the nature. It is not the same as human's competition. We are so insane that we will go to the extent of calculating who runs faster than who by 0.01 second and who scores higher than who by 0.1 mark. Then, different movies shown in the cinema are competing among themselves; different songs standing on the billboard are also competing among themselves; those rich people are also competing to get to the top position of a chart created by some stupid magazines; those pretty girls are also competing among themselves to be the Miss World or Miss Universe, like she is going to represent us to meet up with the aliens from outerspace.

This is like, Strawberry and Rose, which are more red? Cloud and Moon, which are fairer? Which idiot would be interested in these thing?

But ironically, a lot of people take these competitions seriously. And I am one of them. No question about it.

You will be the same too, Jasper.

As you get older, you will involuntarily enter into different types of competitions. And soon you will become competitive. And soon you will end up judging people by using 'success' and 'failure' as the only gauge.

Well, there is nothing wrong about it. But when you start to feel that this 'success' and 'failure' thingie make you feel sad and depressed, make you doubt about your existence in this world, or even make other people around you to feel uncomfortable; I guess that should serve as a warning alarm to you.

Then, when you get even older, you will realise, all those tears, sweats and efforts that you put in just to obtain the top 3 position in class or to emerge as champion in some nonsense competitions are all so laughable. LOL.

And then when you get old enough, some people who have nothing else better to do will start to ask you some stupid questions. An example of these question is, "What would you choose for, a good-looking appearance(handsome), or a good-functioning brain(smart)?"

If you ask for my answer, it would be, "Good-looking."

It is not because I looked ugly now. It is because, you will know whether you are good-looking or not as soon as you look into the mirror. But you probably will not know that you got a stupid brain until the rest of your life.

If really there were someone asking you this question, and you feel like entertaining them, I don't mind that you copy my answer since you are my nephew.

So, this is a basic and simple introduction of the world that you gonna live in for quite a long time. Well, things that I mentioned are mostly my interpretation after arriving here earlier than you for 20+ years. If it doesn't fit for your generation, it is my bad. Everything will change, isn't it?

Therefore, my words might not be true after all. Haha. Well, what do you expect? I am just 21 years older than you, not like I am some willy old wise man that gone through all the experience in life....

So, you will have my blessings upon your arrival to this world. Remember, cry and laugh when you feel you need to, even when you think you have to cry and laugh at the same time. It is not that you are insane, it is just some precious moment of your life experience in this world.

That's all for now. Take good care. Ok, I think my bro and sis-in-law will take good care of you. Till then, bye!

Yours sincerely,
Uncle Soon.

August's Blue

2009-08-02T20:30:00.010+08:00

I nearly forgot that I had a blog.

I am having a nearly 2-month holiday now, starting from 11 June to 17 August. That's when my result come out and I probably have to go for resit classes.

Thus, I guess I still dun need to go work at the moment.

This is the 1st time I am having such a long vacation, since my PMR days. Yeah, that's right. My longest holiday was only 1 month plus, which is after my O-Levels.

So the feeling is nice now, when you are typing more than you are writing.

If you ask me anything happen during my holiday, you should know there isn't any. Because I am a boring person. No, I think I am just lazy to go around. Not passionate is the word.

Went for a few job interviews. Not Big 5 though, just some small company that I dun even remember their names. No reply. Guess they know I am not gonna stay long gua. If not then I should be too suck.

Therefore, all the while, I am staying in my small room, online, youtube, and game. And should be doing my OBU. Haha. Not yet started of course.

Nothing much happen to me, but i guess a lot happen to Malaysia. You know, it's like watching a compilation of different movie. Got Infernal Affairs (无间道), House of Flying Dagger(十面埋伏), and all others you can think of.

Got Infection case, got Kena Pushed Down Case (some bigshot insisted it's a jump down case), got forever anyhow talk cock case (refering to those KOSMO ppl, and the famous dentist and the ex-PM), got gangsterism polictic case etc etc. No wonder politician is categorised as one of the high risk occupation. But High Risk, High Return. Case Reference-(Klang Palace and Dentist's Palace).

After 100 days, Najib started to distribute his candy. But all the 11 flavour also doesn't suit me at all. So I still din enjoy the benefit.

If it's candy you can dun take it if you dun like. But rattan(rotan) you sure must kena, eventhough you dun like. Public transport fee increased again. Taxi=36%, Bus Sekolah=30%, Long Journey Bus=31%. Walau wei! Public transport nowadays also not a very cheap alternative oredi. I just wonder whether their service quality will increase or not.

Teoh Beng Hock had left. It's sad to say this, but I guess this case again will go not far. The best outcome you can get is another person kena pushed out to be responsible for that. That is, if there is anyone willing to do it, like last time C4 case. 2 weeks gone. By looking at the progress, we still have to wait very long to learn the truth, and maybe that's the truth that's being made up.

Yasmin Ahmad, a true Malaysian had left too. I am ignorant, coz now only i noe those Petronas advertisements and other movies like sepet are her art piece. I love Tan Hong Ming and Umi Qazrina. That's the Malaysia that all of us long for. Her advertisement speaks louder that any slogan, any candy. She is more suitable than anyone else to speak about ONE MALAYSIA.

Politic aside.

This is the recent Drama Series I am watching.

K.O. 3anGuo--终极三国
This is the description: After getting kicked out from their 24th school for starting fights and couldn’t find another school that would accept them, Guan Yu and Zhang Fei thought it’s a God send that Liu Bei proposed to be their sworn brothers so they could enroll into the prestigious Dong Han Shu Yuan, a school exclusively for royalty, on the condition that they pay for his tuition. Though they enrolled, it didn’t mean they attended the class in peace because they must survive the school’s death traps and hostile invasion from warring schools.

Basically, it's modern world's Romance of 3 Kingdom. The funny and stupid version. LOL.

Paladin 3--仙剑奇侠传3

This drama series is based on a famous Chinese RPG game. If you have watched the 1st one, then you should continue to watch this. Vannak, if you read this, you should really watch this.

No matter how many years had passed, this game will always be remembered. All the characters will also live in my heart. Maybe that's why I don't like the ending of this drama.

And it's bothering me. It makes me feel, a little bit blue. I guess it's gonna carrying on for some time, at least for this month.

Below shots are from the last episod.

Credit to 情剑山河 http://blog.sina.com.cn/qjshanhe.

p/s: You are right, that's my voice. Ask me if you insist in wanting the orginal voice version. Easier if you go to the website above. Don't sue me for polluting your ears. Thank you very much.

没有林紫菱的日子

2009-04-19T13:57:00.004+08:00

第1640日。阴天。

请不要怪我取个这么俗的标题，呵呵。
其实若不是因为溏心风暴，我还真没想到用blog来写些东西给你。其他人如kennysia之流写了三四五年了，我却才刚开始。（你没看过溏心风暴吧？你走的时候都戏还没开拍呢！）

好久都没有给你写东西了，不过我还在学习如何做Biscotti，并没有搁下，虽然最近课程有点繁忙。

去了一趟咖啡屋，点了一杯曼特宁，但是喝下去感觉却不一样了。开始时我问侍应是不是拿错了，然后再去问店主是不是泡错了；得到的答案是100%曼特宁，外加一个“你到底有没有喝过mandheling”的眼神。

原来并不是所有的咖啡屋的曼特宁都是同一种味道的，虽然苦涩的味道大同小异，但就是好像少了什么似的。可能是咖啡豆放少了，水的温度不对了，我也说不出是什么原因。也有可能是心情不一样了。也有可能是因为我还没习惯喝曼特宁的时候没有你的笑声。

我发觉我把所有事情都想得太理所当然了，就好像现在mamak的roti telur并不是理所当然的像以前有大葱的，加大葱的附加费是20sen。

人与人，除了亲情，其他的感情也不是理所当然的，你说是吗？

我看着身边的人都在忙着facebook，friendster，msn 等等的网络通讯，爱情啊，友情啊什么的都靠这些虚拟的网络维持着。Comment来Comment回，基本上就只是几秒的时间，前提是如果大家都在网上的话。

可是，感情这东西有时像葡萄汁变成葡萄酒一样，需要时间的酝酿与发酵。

可惜网络上的facebook和msn太快了，少了时间的酝酿与发酵，因而累积的情感，来得快，去得也快。

或许，是我落伍了吧，在这个科技时代，谁还会再用笔写信交朋友啊。可是我就是喜欢写在纸上的字迹，比那些电脑荧幕上的虚拟字体多了份真心。

你也是吧？不然我们也不会因为传字条而开始。而你最后留给我的那封信我还留着，虽然到现在我还是非常讨厌信末的那五个对不起，也不再说对不起，顶多是用无关痛痒的sorry代替。

但是最近我却不得不用了那个字眼，为了一场误会，为了不成理由的理由，为了还人情；他们并不像我习惯了寂寞，他们需要朋友，尤其是女生；也亏得他们一起来向我“逼宫”，egoistic那种鬼话都说出来了，我才发觉那几个女生对他们的重要性，呵呵。都是男人啊，我都明白的，所以我也只好成全他们，免得断了他们的路，也算还了他们平时载送我这个无车阶级的情份，也算互不拖欠。

V刚刚凌晨才来找我哭诉了，乱七八糟的两三个小时，才让她的男友给带走。我那狗窝还真的是避难所啊，男啊女啊都有。J那条粉肠前几天来说与他的雌分了，硬是跟我劈了两打啤酒，丫的，害我想消一消我的啤酒肚都不行。总之有欢喜，有悲伤，有忧愁，有悲伤，甚至暧昧的，到单恋的到有。他们的人生真是多姿多彩到台湾的偶像剧都可以来跟我取材了。

其实啊，我真的不知道人伤害人的理由到底是什么。而感情却是个双面刃，想伤害别人的永远都会伤到自己。七伤拳听过了吧，所以还是少碰为妙啊，你说是吗？

喂，问你个问题，我是个很不负责任的人吗？

我一向都觉得我不是一个胆怯的人。自从我八岁克服怕鬼的心理后，我觉得我并没有什么怕的，没有什么不敢做的。但竟然有人说我是个懦夫，说我不敢面对自己的感情，说我害怕感情，说我是一个不肯负责任的人，还有一些有的没的。我当时发神经大声地回了句说，不是我不肯负责任，而是我想负责任的机会没有了。

我想，我的语气是重了些。

五月天--你不是真正的快乐。

紫菱啊，可能假面戴得多了，我好像真的失去了感觉了。

唉，别说这些烦人又没结果的事。

你知道吗，记忆这东西虽然有时比想象中糟得多，但有时却好得出乎你想象。

我想，可能是因为我不能再见到你，所以很多关于你的记忆都非常的清晰。

就像视障人士因为看不见所以听觉比一般人敏锐，而听障人士因为听不见所以视觉比一般人敏锐的道理一样。

哎，我在语无伦次了。

不知曾几何时，我的脑海就一直在数着日子，我想并不是我刻意的去记得吧，acca那么多乱七八糟的东西都够我受了。

我的理由是，可能读会计的对数字比较敏感吧！

原来你已经离开1640天了啊！刚好四年半了。

天阴阴的，cybercafe里全都是玩L4D的咖。等下可能会下雨吧！

1640，不知道magnum4D 会开这个号码吗？呵呵。

Summer April

2009-04-01T18:48:00.004+08:00

This post comes a bit late because it supposed to be up like in the middle of March.
But before I knew it, it's already April.

Ya, today is 1 April 2009. 60 days more to ACCA Examination. Well this is just a reminder for myself in case i forget about it.

Things that happen during March for your info:

Projek Warga.
My 1st presentation project in 3 years ever since I join ACCA eventhough I am not doing the presentation on stage. Given an opportunity to deal with Bahasa Malaysia for the 1st time after like more than 6 years because the language used is BM.
It reminds me of my older days. It reminds me of my first public appearance on stage when I was 6; my 1st story-telling when I was 7; my 1st public speaking experience when I was 11. And also my 1st drama appearance when I was 14.
When I looked at my friends practising prior to the competition, it brought back a lot of my memories when I was still very young.
Well, I realised I was actually a very active boy last time. LOL.

Progress Test 2.
Normal routine of Sunway ACCA. Nothing special about it.

Sunway ACCA Nite.
Attend for the 1st time during my 3 years in Sunway. My last similar event was the Asean Dance. Everyone around me was, to some extent, quite high on that night. In the midst of the shouting and cheering, I realised I no longer feel excitement anymore.

激情过后，一切总归平淡。

Mr. Goh singled me out to tell me that all my good frens are not my true fren today. Haha. It seemed that my frens' prank din work out the way they wanted.

Major Arcana. The Hanged Man, XII.
This is the card that I picked long time ago. So long that I even forget that this is my fate.

Today is April's Fool day. So i think it's ok to be a fool today.

Happy April's Fool Day!

February's Random

2009-02-19T16:25:00.001+08:00

Today is 19 Feb 2009.

For more than 1 month I've not been updating. It's not because I am lazy, not because I'm busy;
It's because the place I stay now has no internet access.

I feel that I am myself when it's at night. It's when in the darkness I feel safe to take down my mask and get back the real me. Probably that's the time when I don't have any nonsense in my mind.

Tranquility.

ACCA results are out. It seems that I'll have chance to graduate by end of June.

If I passed the remaining 4 papers. LOL! Seems so impossible.

I used to talk about politic, and you know that. But I feel it's getting nowhere. After the "Jumper" incident that happen in Perak, I think that I overestimated myself. I always thought that I know the current situation well, but it turns out that actually I am very blur.

Nobody is your friend or your enemy forever. How true!

So, maybe I should talk about what I know next time. Accounting and Business maybe?

Sold rose during Valentine's day. 1st time experience in wrapping flower. Just hope that people that bought roses from me can bear with it.

I am still learning to do biscotti. Next time would be my 13th attempt.

So, do you plan to tell me what have you put inside last time besides vanilla extract? I can never make the biscotti taste like that.

Even if you don't tell me, I am confident that I am able to find out myself. Then I shall bring the biscotti to see you, along with your favourite mandheling.

That, will be, maybe after my 50th attempt.

Bla Bla 2009

2009-01-11T12:06:00.002+08:00

Haven't updated for 2 months. This blog is so unfamiliar to me that I almost forgot its existence. I am seriously thinking of applying streamyx for the house in my hometown. More than 1 month of no internet life made me feel like disconnected from the world.

December last year was wedding's peak period. Everyone around me seemed to be rushing to get married before 2008 ends. I wonder whether they feel 2009 might not be a good year ahead.

Well I am very hopeful towards 2009 because the previous year 2008 was so bad that it could not get worse.

Economic recession? Well it's the aftermath of 2008 and got nothing to do with 2009.

Toll price increase? That bunch of draculas are already there for a long time, even before I was born. And their presence are legal and protected by the law.

The war in Gaza? Come on, they have already been fighting since they exist. It's useless to wish that there will be peace as it will never come true. The prologue of WorldWar3 has already started, but in the form that we are not familiar with.

Barrack Obama said " Yes, We Can Change". But I dunno whether we have the ability to change and what can we change.

I watch The Matrix again on TV for like after 10 years. Then I realised that we need much more courage than this to change, to fight with our fate.

This entry is a bit in a mess, just like my mind now, and I think the world too.

And I am now sitting in the college foyer, typing all this mess for like 3 hours.

Nice and peaceful Sunday morning, eventhough there is no hot chicks in the foyer at this time.

Oh ya, Happy New Year to everyone, very late but better than never.

The Story Of Mr. Alor

2008-10-30T21:29:00.004+08:00

There is this one guy.

He is born in Malaysia and of course he is a Malaysian. And as usual, he has a typical Malaysian kind of name-- Alor.

Mr. Alor dunno why he is named like that. He just know that since he was born, everyone called him Alor. He did not like this name. Unfortunately he had no choice but to stick with it.

As Mr. Alor became older, the more he disliked his name. Everytime he went on holiday tours to other countries using "company's money", he meets with different people from different countries. The more he went outstation, the more he disliked his name.

Finally, after the 15th "holiday tour" and spending nearly RM1.5 mil, he had enough and decided that it's time to change his name.

Now, the question is, change to what name?

Mr. Alor cracked his head for days and nights. He even had a committee to help to get him a new name. It cannot be James, George, Ronaldo, Obama and stuffs like that because he had met enough of them. He wanted something special. A name that will make him feel superior over the others. A name that will make him proud of himself.

Suddenly, a movie posters caught his attention. It's "Superman Returns". It enlightened him.

Therefore, his new name would be named after VENUS a.k.a KEJORA.

What's more special and superior than having a "non-earth name"? Mr. Kejora and his committee members were very excited for this new name thingy and can't wait to share with the whole world about this.

The outcome is really unpleasant. At least for Mr. Kejora.

Everyone around him were against his decision of changing names. His boss dun like it, his friends dun appreciate it, his neighbours dun understand it, even strangers were criticising it.

He forgot that eventhough he thinks that he comes from other planet, he is still living on earth. He is still in Malaysia which has its own culture.

After facing much pressure, especially coming from his boss, Mr. Kejora had no choice but to give in and used back the name that he disliked--Alor.

In Mr. Alor's mind, he was still wondering why changing his name to Kejora was so difficult.

His final conclusion: Most probably the people in Malaysia and on Earth were just jealous about the fact that he is a superman who comes from Venus.

The Reasoning Behind All The Sex Scandals

2008-10-27T23:42:00.006+08:00

I heard about a story recently.

Once a upon a time, during a session in the parliament, Tunku Abdul Rahman challenged all the MPs to raise up their hand if any of them never had committed adultery before. The end result is that nobody raised up their hand then besides 1 chinese MP.

This story was told by Mr. Tun Ling, ex-president of MCA.

The moral of the story, according to Tun Ling, was that every man sitting at high position in this world has too much energy left over, thus they have to find different ways to release these "energy".

And of course, at the end of his story-telling, Tun Ling said he is not one of them.

Set aside the reliability of the content of the story, it really gives me a new perspective regarding all the famous sex scandals that happened in the long past and recently.

Politic Region
US President--J.F.Kennedy and Bill Clinton
Malaysia ex-Health Minister--Dato Chua Soi Lek
Malaysia c-4 Man-- ?????(unknown figutive)

Celebrity Region
X-Files Actor-- David Duchovny
HK Actor-- Edison Chan

Student Region?!
LimKokWing University--1 guy, 2 girls

(And the list will sure go on and on + those not surfacing yet.)

So, based on my knowledge from the incidents above and by cross-referencing with the message that Tun Ling tried to convey, I had come up with few conclusions on sex scandal.

1. Every man in this world is "naughty" naturally.
2. Every man in this world sure will commit adultery, the matter is whether it is revealed or not. 3. If the man apologize after you have done "something wrong", most likely you will be forgiven.
4. Besides wealth and high position in the society, every man in this world must equip themselves with other skills professional skills eg. photoshooting, video recording in order to capture the girl in this world.
5. Girls in this world will normally like men that are "naughty" and "bad".

And again, respected Tun Ling is not included in the list of the man in this world. He is the only pure soul in this world, not committing the "wrong thing" that every man in this world will do.

Now, I know why no girls like me already.

It is because I have no money, I am a nobody, I dunno photography, and most importantly, I am not naughty.

Shit! Like that I become like Tun Ling already.

No no. I am not refering to myself.

New Hero Of DOTE

2008-10-23T22:24:00.009+08:00

There is this New Hero in WarCraft 4-DOTE (Defense of the Economy) which really impress me. I believe it is the strongest ever hero being created.

Hero Name: M'SIA FINANCE MINISTRY
Primary Damage: 75-90 CHAOS DAMAGE (Weapon Equiped--Incoming UMNO President)
Armor: 50 (UMNO Shield--Damage reduction 90%)

Strength: 66.1
Intelligence: 25.3
Agility: 7.4

Both RANGED and MELEE HERO

Skill No. 1 : Self-Hypnosis.
Just last week, when most of the countries in the world like US, UK, Australia, including our best neighbour Singapore announced that they are planning to come out ways to raise fund to help to save the current market crisis, the Finance Ministry tried to hypnotize everyone that Malaysia is doing good, Malaysia got good corporate governance, Malaysia has no worries, Malaysia this, Malaysia that.... This phenomenon is called entering into "self-protection mode". Normally, this will happen alongside with selectively forgetful disease.

Description: You can enter into "Berserk" state, increase your damage by 20%, makes you think that you "BOLEH"(capable) in doing anything.

Cooldown: Unlimited Use

Rating: 7/10

Skill No. 2: Attitude-Changing (as fast as the weather and some say as women)
1 week later, out of really sudden, the Finance Ministry is coming out with a "3-course meal" menu including the RM5 Billion "borrowed" from KWSP(where all your precious EPF money are stored) to invest in the famous but very unknown and as secretive as the Mafia Organisation--- ValueCap.

Description: You can enter into "Shapeshift" state, which enable you to confuse your enemy(Malaysian People) and create illusions to the other people in the world. Not a very useful skill in combat, but good in escaping from being held responsible.

Cooldown: 7 days

Rating: 5/10

Skill No. 3: To "Kill The Enemy" Without Using Your Own Sword
Want to rescue the economy crisis? No need to use the money from very profitable "private-owned" company Petronas. Just use other people's money, like the taxpayer's money. The benefit of this tactic: No risk, High Return. Loss covered by you, Profit go into my own pocket.
Because in the end, who knows what does the so-called "loan" contract by KWSP consist of? No repayment period, no interest rate, no securities, no nothing. Besides, even there is such thing in the contract, there is still 1 beautiful thing called "substance over form". This tactic is of the highest standard, highly recommended for Malaysia purpose, and track record has proven no failure.

Description: Grant you "Vampiric Aura" and Money-Drain. Approx. RM500 mil sucked per investment made. A very useful skill if you want to "FARM". Farming is important if you wanna buy good and nice equipment in the latter stage of the game eg. the Klang Palace.

Cooldown: When There Is Government Investment

Rating: 8/10

Skill No. 4: High Efficient
This ULTIMATE SKILL is granted by the Malaysia Godlike Party a.k.a UMNO which has absolute power over all Malaysian. When US needs to go through endless debate to approve the US$700 Billion fund of the poor to save the rich, Malaysia just need 1 man to get the job done. Malaysia environment is zone of no-debate. Parliament is just a place for tourists and students for visiting purpose.

Description: You will enter into an AVATAR state. Immune to all magical spells like people's voice(ISA); invulnerable from normal attacks like the law and constitution, equip you with Divine Rapier+250 damage which ensure that all your self-decided policies implemented as fast as rocket.

Cooldown: Unlimited Use

Rating 10/10

With the creation of this new hero, I believe DOTE will be as interesting as usual. If you like to see money being burnt.

寂寞考

2008-10-21T23:09:00.004+08:00

十月, 多雨之秋, 也是多事之秋.

我的身边发生了很多事, 政治上的变动, 经济上的窘境, 通膨的压力, 以及其他的绿豆芝麻的事. 我不说, 你应该也知道吧!

你曾说过, 政治是肮脏的, 所以这篇东西我不会牵扯到肮脏的东西, 哈哈.

前几天刚会马六甲跟我爸庆祝生日, 然后去了未来大嫂的家乡一趟. 所以这几天都在奔波中, 有点累. 想一想12月的考试, 还真的有点担心.

P2, P3, 还有天杀的F5！真希望能够在明年六月毕业, 你会保佑我的吧！

一千五百多个日子, 原来真么快就过去了. 这些日子, 我以为我已经适应没有你的日子.

我以为我喜欢上其他人, 才发觉原来她的背影与你很相似.

我以为, 寂寞它有什么大不了？

但是, 这四年来, 才发现, 却真是寂寞它考倒了我.

nal geuman ijeohyo

2008-10-12T00:50:00.004+08:00

Watched "A Moment To Remember" again after like 3 years.

I thought I have forgotten the plot, just like I thought I have forgotten a lot of other things and feelings, but actually I didn't.

I thought that my mood wouldn't be affected by a korean production, but I just couldn't control the pH level of my nose from dropping below 6.

I thought that I am strong enough to face anything in life, only to realise that all this while I am just ignoring it, keeping it aside. No matter how well I hide it, it will just pop up once in a while, just to remind me of their existence.

"Please Forget Me Now."

But do you know that? There is no eraser in my memory.

And you know this post is not for you because it's written in English! So I am not thinking of you now.

October, please go away.

Waiting For Godot

2008-10-07T22:42:00.002+08:00

I read about Samuel Beckett's famous play "Waiting for Godot".

My friend recommended me to check it out so I did.

The play is very simple. 2 men were waiting for someone called "Godot", someone whom 2 of them have no idea how Godot looked like. They just waited and waited and until the whole play finished, that 2 men still waiting for Godot. They did not know why they had to wait for this Godot, they only know they have to wait; they can't do anything else besides waiting.

What kinda nonsense is this? That's my reaction after I finished reading the play.

But then I realised, how irony is this play. Yeah, we human always have to waste our time in waiting; always set some targets while waiting for the results in order to determine how much we are worth of.

Most of the people would think that this play is nonsense too. They thought, where got such idiots? They would never be like that, waiting for dunno what they are waiting.

But, those are the people who will wait and chase for something in life, keep on waiting and keep on chasing.

When you ask them why they need to wait and chase for that something?

"I also dunno why, but I just feel the need to wait and chase for it." will probably be their answer.

In Malaysia, there are these bunch of people are waiting for an annoucement currently. An announcement by that top guy of Malaysia eventhough they dunno what he is gonna announced.

In US, there are also these bunch of people who are always waiting for miracle to happen, to bail them out the current shitty situation, just like in 1992. No wonder heroic action-packed movie like spiderman, superman, batman etc... can sell very well in US.

In Thailand, everyone is also waiting. But nobody know what are they waiting for. 2 prime ministers were down now. Who is the third one? True, nobody knows.

It seems that everyone in the world is waiting for Godot. So, does it mean that everyone of us is a fool?

下雨天

2008-10-03T23:48:00.006+08:00

今天迎来十月的第一场雨.

词: 梁心颐
曲: 张杰
主唱: 梁心颐

下雨天了怎么办我好想你
不敢打给你我找不到原因
为什么失眠的声音变得好熟悉
沉默的场景做你的代替陪我听雨滴

期待让人越来越沉溺
谁和我一样等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞一个人擦泪一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑才能够有你的体贴
其实没有我你分不清哪些差别结局还能有多明显
别说你会难过别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

期待让人越来越疲惫
谁和我一样等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞一个人擦泪一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑才能够有你的体贴
其实没有我你分不清哪些差别结局还能有多明显
别说你会难过别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

就用这首歌来纪念这一天吧! 你应该会喜欢的.

End Of September--Time to Wake Up

2008-09-30T23:46:00.004+08:00

September has ended.

So I think it's time to wake up.

Yes, Mr. Marcus, you have done a great job in terrorising me for setting a world-class standard paper. You deserve a big clap from me. I am going to see red already.

And yes Arsenal, don't deny that you are shit, a piece of shit. Big cannon can't fight with tiger. Now only I realised that. Oh dear!

Yeah, I know I am not good in making decision on which team to bet on. They say you need to have a good far-sight when it comes to decision making. True, not only in betting football team, but also in investing.

CASE STUDY 1: F1 RACE
Subject: Singapore F1 (Another night event after the famous night-safari)
By just investing merely 40 mil for the pit-stop, Singapore Night F1 is generating an annually revenue of 100 million. And as usual, Malaysia will have to spend more in doing the same thing, in order to show their superiority: 286mil to built the Sepang circuit+monthly maintanance cost+few yearly renovation costs.

Well, eventhough NFS:Underground 1&2 came out few years ago, why Malaysia never thought of having street F1 race? Erm....maybe 10 years ago, there is no needforspeed that's why.
In P3, we have learnt about this theory called LATE MOVER ADVANTAGE by Christopher Bartlett & Sumantra Ghoshal). I think it applies here fit and well.

CASE STUDY 2: ACQUISITION
Subject: The Acquasition of Indonesia International Bank
Maybank wants to invest in other country too after it has seen and envied enough of the stories of successful investments by Temasek Holdings. So it thought the recent US crisis was a good chance and went on to propose to throw RM4.8 billion for 55.5% shares of the Indon-Bank in March, and subsequetly the FairValue of consideration paid will go up to RM8.7billion for 100% acquisition.

Then, BankNegara realised that it is double of the market price. In order to protect Maybank, they disallow the acquisition proposal, by forfeiting the RM570 million up-front payment. The purpose of this is to save Maybank from losing about RM4.3billion after the whole acquisition.

I wonder whether the Maybank management got study P3 Business Analysis or not. Or maybe they think they have too much tax-payer money to waste after all. But I wish that Maybank will throw the RM570 million into the sea rather than donating to Temasek & Korean Bank, at least
you throw into the sea you can hear the sound mah. I feel that's better.

CASE STUDY 3: RESTRUCTURING
Subject: MV Agusta
I never expect Malaysia got talents of Warren Buffett in term of restructuring the business, but I really don't think it's that bad.

Proton bought Italiano-MV Agusta for €7omilion. Then sold it away for just €1! Total lost=RM800million. Proton's Believe It Or Not! The most unbelievable thing is that Harley Davidson wholly acquired MV Agusta for US$190million in July 2008. This is more mysterious than any of the X-Files of FBI.

Therefore, I believe it's time for us to WAKE UP! after September ends. For the Management of Malaysia, it's time to wake up and stop all the "Value-Destroying Activities" and stop giving out golden boots. For myself, it's time to wake up and start getting serious because ACCA Monster is going to haunt me in December!

Oh yea, before I forget, to all the Muslims, Happy Hari Raya and Maaf Zahir Batin. People always think that I am a racist. But you all are wrong!

I wonder, is there anyone going for Pak Lah's Hari Raya open house tomorrow?

LALALA

2008-09-23T23:44:00.003+08:00

I am wondering....

Should I go for Part-Time slot??

Ahhhh.......

Anyway.... Good luck RPK. Wish you all the best in Kamunting Hotel. We will always respect your spirit as a fighter. Sad to say, Malaysia is just not the place for all these freedom kind of thing....

HolyShit(a.k.a beyond godlike)!!!

2008-09-22T23:39:00.006+08:00

I am in a terrorized state.

Everything that happens gave me this fearful feeling.

P2 progress test lifeline is 35, with a P3 which remains totally unknown to me. And they are going to haunt me for this week.

The 1997 nightmare occurs again. The difference is that the US were not affected then but now they are the creator of this chaos which is affecting the whole world. Many bigshots including the Lehman Brothers, ManUtd sponsors AIG are down. Thanks to the economy policy of US of encouraging investors to play with fire.

And the finance minister post was swapped at this moment. And of course, we don't really care about the reason behind it. We only care about what measures is the new finance minister gonna take to rescue us.

Stepping-down Bush's govt got US$70bil to rescue their economy but I wonder what does Malaysian govt got after buying war equipment+astronaut(a.k.a canornaut), useless bank, plus building so many state-of-art white elephant etc.

Nope. The petrol price is not gonna be reduced. 15 sen decrease again? Wait for another by-election.

Don't try to talk so much. So what if you are a MP? You may express your opinion or exercise whatever rights that you have but always bear in mind that the ISA used to counter the communists is still applicable now. Nevertheless, many people want to abolish it, including the Bar Council(since 20 years ago) and some politicians(after scared by the 308 election).

Be careful of the people around you. Especially those close to you. You dunno when they will force you to give up your post or whatever you have if you cannot satisfy their needs. Accept it, in this world, nobody is your enemy forever, neither is anyone your friend forever, at least in Malaysia.

Anti-Corruption Agency is trying to be the next HongKong's ICAC. They want to be independent, at last. But ICAC in Hokkien means "want you to die can make you die" and thinking of how the culture was (or still is??) like in the past, I am veryy scared.....

And today I bought 2 packets of instant noodles for RM2!!!! Unbelievable...... And thus I am further kena scared the crap out of me. Haha....

But the worst is still p2 and p3 la..... Nothing is more horrible than them...... Monstrous!!!!

Nothing Happen As Yet

2008-09-16T20:47:00.006+08:00

16.09.2008.

Everyone is anticipating something. Well, I believe it is not gonna happened anyway, at least not for now. Maybe end of year, maybe the following year, or probably the next 5 years. However, most likely, it will never gonna happen.

I believe this is due to resistant to changes and fear of the unknown tomorrow. Most of us is feared to take risk or should I say too complacent. We are too used to follow the routine procedures, just like how we are so used to Microsoft like that, eventhough it is so vulnerable towards virus and hackers, we still dun feel like using Mac.

Ok la, you can say Mac not that user-friendly la, not so easily available la, not cheap la, not compatible with alot of software la and 1000 million etc; just like how the politicians (u noe i dun mean the opposition rite?) will crack their brain to evaluate the pros(chance to pocket more tax-payer money+high post in the party) and cons(chance of not getting any shit+maybe a Chinese PM) if there is a total change over.

Even the normal citizen will also think twice before they choose to believe the opposition. God knows whether they belong€ to a more deathly cannibals or not, due to lack of past track records.

They call this the "Organisation Paradigm". If you know this, then you will know the Onion Cultures by Schein with Bowman la. They together with some other very smart people( I presumed) generated more theories and models than whatever u can think of. And bloody hell I need to digest and make use of them for the coming Dec exam.

We are always in a dilemma. We always want to change for better, but we are scared of the outcome of the change. I mean drastic change or what they say the BIG BANG change. Then u will always face the barriers and lotsa oppostion voices. No wonder everyone would prefer the boiling frog way, ie. by the time you know it, you are dead.

So, it is normal that nothing is gonna happen today. What has happened is that Mr. Zaid, Minister in the Prime Minister’s Department, resigned. Not because he was unhappy of not getting the opportunity to go for the Taiwan trip, but because of his current stand in opposing the Internal Security Act and of course the infectious 'pre-Umno-election symptoms' which sufferred by his fellow comrades.

I am not good in analysis, as I had failed in my recent P3 tests very badly, but I still think running away is not a good solution. A responsible minister equiped with conscience and dedication is already a scarce resource. He should be more persevere and break his way through in fighting for the rights and benefits of all Malaysian. But, well, the choice is in his hands anyway as we all know, he is too inferior compared to the giant that he is facing.

Today is a peaceful day I must say, although some people in the Kamunting Hotel cannot see how blue is the sky today.

Tomorrow is a public holiday, and the shitty thing is that I have class tomolo.

"You have no life!" repeatedly reminder from Ms. Menon.

Oh, how true is that!

喂，中秋节快乐

2008-09-14T22:35:00.012+08:00

中秋节.

中午的时候太阳很烈, 但是到了傍晚时候却下了场雨.

说真的我很不希望今晚是阴天, 虽然每个月都会有月圆之夜.

你不是说过吗? 中秋节的月亮特别圆的, 运气好的话说不定会看到那一年只能出外溜达一次的玉兔呢!

我想我的眼力应该比你弱很多吧... 这几年来的八月十五, 除了前年的阴天, 我没少瞧高挂天空的月亮, 但我就怎么没发觉它比其它的时候圆呢? 更甭说那玉兔和它的主人了. 可能近视比较深, 也可能是我没有那种觉悟吧!

我放下读不进脑的P2和烦人的Groups Account, 走到阳台往外望了望.

6.30p.m. 的天空一片灰色，伴随着细细飘落的雨滴.

不过还好，雨下到七点多就停了，就是乌云很多. 我想耐心一点应该能等到月亮不躲在乌云背后的时候吧. 害羞总还得有个谱嘛！

黄天真不负我这有心人，终于也给我逮到了它！哈哈！

怎么样？八月十五的月亮我都给你弄来了，厉害吧！你摸摸看，是不是比较圆一点呢？至于玉兔嘛...... 其实我很想问你，你说你见过它是骗我的吧！都怎么多年了，你就忍心一直骗我下去？算了算了，不与你计较，都说了好男跟女什么都斗得，就是不能斗嘴. 我老早就知道了啦.

你最近过得还好吗？这问题废是废点，但是却是真心的. 我保证, 嘿嘿.

你吃饭时还会老掉筷子吗？说真的，这么大一个人了，怎么就连筷子都握不好呢？还每次都使唤我去帮你捡起来换过另一双. 现在我不在你身边，换筷子这事要亲力亲为了吧！

喔，对了，怡君前几天来过我这儿，说是要提早与我庆祝中秋节. 你别以为我是想和你备案啊，她也只是刚刚从欧洲旅行回台北时顺道来看我吧了，不过她还算有心，带了几盒月饼. 不过几年前你离开后，我也很少吃月饼了. 丫的现在的月饼也太贵了吧！而且不知道为什么，可能是习惯问题，你不在后，没有人与我抢蛋黄，吃月饼也就没有什么了趣，进而味道也没那么好了. 最重要的原因是我不知道你在那儿吃不吃到月饼，如果我吃到而你只能干瞪眼，对你未免太残忍了吧！所以我让怡君那几盒都带走，只留下一个来应景.

看到她提着大包小包的回台北，心里有些不忍. 你说我是不是做得有点绝了？不过我想你应该去开导开导她，台湾好而帅的男人多的是，她不应该怎么浪费的，是吧？嗯，台湾那儿有台风，希望对她的课不会有太大影响.

哎，忘了跟你说，我哥今年底就要结婚了.那可是咱家的第一个婚礼,那时候可热闹了. 可惜却是在我ACCA考试的前一天，真郁闷！不过没关系，愉快地心情没被影响到. 安啦，我会把你的祝福告诉我哥的. 你心爱的宴会专用黑色连身裙还在我家，我想如果你能穿上它出席的话，应该会惊艳全场吧！不过不要抢了我大嫂的风头！哈哈，凭我刚所说的，你是不是应该给个奖励呢？

说着说着，没有你的第三个中秋节就快过去了. 时间过得真他妈的快. 你也真放心我，就这么的走了，难道你就不怕我变心？不过，一个人还真的很难挨. 而且，我还真的有点想念你.

好啦，我打赌输了，愿赌服输，你爱怎样就怎样吧！皱眉头的不是好汉！

丫的，房间里哪来的沙子，都吹进眼了.

She Will Never Know

2008-09-12T00:43:00.006+08:00

There are these things that Women will never know about Man:

1. She will never know why He has to learn to be sturdy.
It is because he knows himself very well that although he may appear to be strong, his heart is very fragile; and he always wants her to feel that he is always the best.

2. She will never know why He doesn't drop his tears so easily.
It is because he knows himself very well that when his tears drop, it indicates the end of the relationship.

3. She will never know why He likes to smoke when he is fretful.
It is because he knows very well only by doing that he can recall those wonderful moments of theirs in order to make him feel rejuvenated.

4. She will never know why He will lose his mind whenever He heard that She is being treated badly.
It is because he knows very well that eventhough he will definitely lose in the fight, he will still feel very happy because he would rather being injured himself than seeing her crying.

5. She will never know why He is always drunk at night.
It is because he knows very well that if he doesn't anaesthetize himself, he will end up thinking of her the whole night.

6. She will never know why He is so generous whenever they hang out together.
It is because he knows very well that he would rather be frugal himself than seeing her being looked down by other people.

7. She will never know why He would always lose his temper.
It is because he knows very well it is not that he doesn't love her, it is just that he hopes that she would not be cheated by others whenever she is alone.

8. She will never know why He would care about her ex-boyfriend so much.
It is because he knows very well that it is not that he doesn't have confident in himself, it is just that he is afraid that she will leave him one day.

9. She will never know why He would be so patient to listen to her when He found out that She mentioned about another guy in her diary.
It is because he knows very well that it is not that he doesn't want to blow up, it is just that he wants to know from her who is more important towards her.

10. She will never know why He never say "I Love You" to her.
It is because he knows very well that it is not that he doesn't want to say it, it is just that he realises that a million times of that phrase is just not enough to use on her.

She will never know.

Wake Me Up When September Ends

2008-09-09T22:06:00.003+08:00

Whenever September comes, it always reminds me of this song by GREENDAY.

And this MV will always touches my heart no matter how many times I have watched it.

Not because of Rachel Wood, but because of these few lines in the beginning of the MV:

"You know they say life is short. They say you wake up one day, and on that day, all your dreams, everything you wish for, gone just like that. People get old and all things change and situations are changing, but I want is just I want this moment right now this day. My feelings for you, the way you look right now when I look at you."

Life is so full of uncertainties, doesn't it?

Wake me up, when September ends.

Apology--A Scarce and Useless Resources

2008-09-07T14:27:00.009+08:00

In the famous Taiwanese Series "Meteor Garden", there is this phrase I like the most.

"If apologize can settle any matter, what for we need police?"

Well, in Malaysia, not only apologize is useless, even the police is just a nice piece of ornament. Worse still, someone is so stingy that you need to cross over his dead body if you wanna hear "sorry" coming out from his stubborn mouth.

Yes, he is one of the so-called "Malay's Hero", Bukit Bendera Umno Chief-- Ahmad Ismail.

As all of you might have seen or heard of his marvelous act during the Permatang Pauh by-election recently, I think I wouldn't have to repeat what racist remarks he had made. But I have to admit that he is really a hero.

Just think about it, who the hell in Malaysia can has this ability to make the top 2 leaders of Malaysia to help him to wipe his ass after he has done his business? This time, Ahmad Ismail has really made his family very proud.

In his 51st National Day Message, Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi urged every Malaysian to give importance to solidarity, as “it is the cornerstone of the country’s political stability, social harmony and economic competitiveness”.

Ahmad Ismail immediate response is to demand Badawi not to compromise Malay's rights (Ketuanan Melayu) to please other races in Malaysia.

Very Nice! Very Brave!

Even our ex-PM who suppose to enjoy his retirement also jumped out and supported him by stating "why non-Malay doesn't need to apologize?" Well, this time, Mr. Mahathir is not that forgetful anymore like in Lingam's case and has recalled some of the incidents to prove himself.

"Why Wee Meng Chee doesn't apologize?" (Wee Meng Chee is the creator of "Negarakuku")
"Why Hindraf doesn't apologize?"
"Why only Ahamd Ismail needs to apologize?"
"Why only Malays need to apologize?"

Whoa! Ahmad Ismail is really damn 'powderful'! Even Mahathir is backing his ass now.

I really wonder what is inside Mahathir's brain now. What is he thinking about? Nobody would believe such low-class+childish phrase would come out from his mouth, a person who was once a prime minister, a leader.

I would like to remind Mr. Mahathir of his selective forgetful disease if he has not forgotten these:

1. Wee Meng Chee nearly couldn't return to his country because of the song mentioned above which doesn't even touched the sensitive racist issue. And if you didn't forget, not only Meng Chee, but his father too has apologized due to the pressure by 'Heroes'.

2. Hindraf's Memorandum is just against the current government and certain political party, not the races; they had paid the price by eating curry rice now in Kamunting Hotel now. What somemore do you want them to do?

3. Apologize is not a racist issue, it is an attitude of admitting your own fault. It's an attitude practiced by everyone in this world. Therefore, there shouldn't be any double-standard that only Malays or non-Malays should apologize.

Mahathir is really old. Therefore, he can be blurred and forgetful. He can also forget that ten years ago, if not because of the votes of the non-Malays, the BN governmen had already lost its 2/3 majority in the 1999 General Election. He must have forgotten that he could still be the Prime Minister then is because of the support of the non-Malay, especially the Chinese.

Thank God that he is no longer the Prime Minister but an old man now.

I know the coming Umno Election is very important to brats like Ahmad Ismail and gangs, but I think they should know that racist issues is no longer the fire which they all can play and use to gain votes to substantiate thier position in Umno. The voters in Permatang Pauh had already voiced out that racist issues just couldn't work nowadays.

Maybe it's time for everyone, regardless of race to work hand-in-hand not to make Malaysia a hopeless country.

I Want A Honda

2008-09-04T21:06:00.003+08:00

New Honda City will be launched in 2009!

Below are 2 of the so-called spyshots from PAUL TAN's site: http://paultan.org/topics/cars/new-honda-city-2009/

The current HONDA CITY is not ugly, but not appealing enough for me.

But this new HONDA CITY really attracts me. It looks like it is a combination of Civic and FCX.

WOOHOO!

I have always been a supporter for HONDA cars since I first saw EG-6 in comic INITIAL-D although my family drives TOYOTA. Even the MAZDA's rotary engine couldn't impress me as much as HONDA does.

I will be eyeing on this HONDA CITY from now on. BMW is next. HAHAHA. I know I know. It's a huge jump. But, it's okay 1.

Really hope that the stupid Malaysia policy of overly-protecting Proton could be abolished so that there is more chance for me to lay my hands on this CITY.

Condolences To Freedom Of Speech

2008-08-29T19:08:00.005+08:00

Malaysia Today has been blocked by Malaysian Communications and Multimedia Commission (MCMC). Oh well..... Freedom of speech proved speechless here...

Nevertheless, there is this article posted in Malaysia-Today previously which I like a lot, entitled "What I really care about?"

Below is the exact original copy from Malaysia-Today.net. It's a bit long though but meaningful, at least to me. Just hope that I will not be blocked or ISAed too for sharing this.

What I Really Care About

Posted by St Low
Thursday, 28 August 2008 19:53

I don't care whether your Swiss bank account has billions and billions of dollars, legally or illegally; as long as my wallet is full, and I have enough to still survive till the end of the month.

However, if your Swiss bank account is full, and as a result, you deprive the right of my wallet to be full, then that is a problem. When I have to cut down on trips to Bukit Bintang at the end of the month, when I opt for a Kancil instead of a Benz, when I feel an urge to eat fried chicken but have to eat goreng pisang, then that is a problem. And since my wallet is not full, and still far from full, and keeps decreasing, and your Swiss bank account is still exponentially increasing, I want to question why. If I don't even get a right to question why, then I will be angry, and really angry and will try all means to stop your Swiss bank account from continually increasing.

The Singapore ministers have the highest paychecks in the world. However, since they are sharing the country's success with the people, and everyone's wallet is full till the end of the month, the people are therefore happy to always re-elect these ministers with landslide wins.

So, hopefully one day you will understand that I really don't care about your Swiss bank account, and I only care about my own wallet as long as it's full.

I don't care whether you stripped off the natural resources - our god-given natural oil reserves before your ancestors and my ancestors landed in this beloved land; as long as the stripped-off natural resources are put to good use to improve the country and infrastructure, and I can enjoy a leiurely walk along the developed city without being highly taxed.

I do envy the low tax (or no tax?) in Brunei and some middle-East countries, yet enjoy superb infrastructure. Their future descendants may find their god-given natural resources exhausted but at least they get to enjoy the fruits from their ancestors using the natural resources to trade for better infrastructure and development of the country.

However, if you stripped off the natural resources, and I still don't get to see a developed city, and still get highly taxed, then that is a problem. I will worry about my future generations when the country has run out of these resources. How are they going to survive with the lousy infrastructure our country is leaving behind? In the meantime, when I see your big multi-million-dollar fully-developed mansion near Klang as a result of stripping off natural resources which belong to the countrymen, I am really angry. And I will try all means to stop you from building multi-million-dollar mansions for your own leisure.

Hope that one day you will understand that I really don't care about your act of stripping off our natural resources, and I only care about how you spend it wisely for development.

I don't care whether you drive a Mercs or a Proton, and I don't care whether the maintenance bill is skyrocketing for your state-issued cars. I only care about my own car and my own maintenance cost.

However, when you issued APs to some fat-fat cronies, the import of good quality cars became too expensive. So, when I have to either get a bad quality car with high maintenance, or a good imported car with low maintenance but further fattening the fat cronies, I am angry. Don't cry if your AP is taken away from you because the AP shouldn't belong to you in the first place. Don't be so happy if you are a good friend of the son-in-law of the AP's issuer, and get tonnes of Toyota Prius APs, because sooner or later you will lose everything and even cost your friend's father-in-law his job as well.

Hope that one day you will understand that I really don't care about your car, as long as I have a good quality and affordable car.

I don't care whether you have dozens of bodyguards around you, and even enough to despatch some for the C4 act; as long as I don't get robbed even inside my highly secured terrace.

However, I remember that thievery was rare when I was young, not to mention robberies. Furthermore, the distinction between the robbers and the police is becoming grayer. When you import so many underqualified 'expats' from overseas, and when losing their jobs turn to robbery, I am really angry. I was even angrier when you have enough bodyguards to despatch some for the C4 act yet I am feeling so insecure under broad daylight. When I cry for help after a robbery, the help will come much later after all the robbers have cleared the scene.

I don't know what to say about the judiciary, police, and our guardians. Isn't it stated in the constitution (and any pea-sized brain homo-sapien should know) that the judiciary and the executive should be separated? And yet, someone with a Maha-brain mixed-up the judiciary with the government to make it inseparable.

Hope that one day you will understand that security and justice is a basic need in the Maslow's hierarchy of needs, not only for you, but for me as well.

I don't care whether you control the media or not, as long as I still get to read Malaysia Today and Malaysiakini on the web.

Just like when you misinterpreted Karpal's message on 25 August, and issued an apology later on 26 August evening, but damage had already been done. Some innocent kampung people that were susceptible to your media and your words must be greatly regretting now. Luckily, it was not damaging enough. And don't forget that they will remember this day and the consequences will come in the future, against you.

Hope that one day you will understand the media is to spread unity and love, not to spread your own hatred and insincerity.

I don't care whether you open Mara to other races as well; as long as my future generations still get to enjoy good education, and as long as the top universities at least still earn some slight respect from the international communities. Do you remember that University of Malaya was once ranked highly, in medicine and other courses? Do you remember when it was still in the list of ranked international universities? Can you do me a favor - try surfing the UM's website to check how many of their professors have internationally-referred journals; how many of them still have international standings. And where is its ranking now, can you tell me? Do you think I care whether my future generations can get a place in Mara? If UM is not recognized in the world, why would I mention Mara? Oppsss..., no problem as all your sons are studying overseas in Oxford or Cambridge, with taxpayer monies.

Hope that one day you will understand there is no point in competing among the races on scarce education resources as we have the whole world stage to compete on in terms of science, technology and arts; and I hope my descendants can compete on a world stage as a result of your education system.

I don't care whether you issue contracts to your cronies or not; as long as it is issued fairly. And if I lost the contract, I would be able to take it as it was due to my lack of competitiveness. But before I can bid for a contract and at least guarantee my bread-and-butter, someone is writing some tolong letter to you. And you bypass all the fair and just systems to deliver the contract to this Apa-Nama-Out-of-the-Country's pocket, at a highly marked up price and the deliverables are highly susceptible to failure. As a result, we have to pay high toll fees for never-ending years and getting electricity as costly as diamonds, and a parliament house that is always flooded.

Hope that one day you will understand the value of fairness; win is a win, lose is a lose. Not by connections, but by competitiveness.

I don't care about your racist remarks and keris-flying acts as long as I can still maintain the friendship of my Malay, Chinese and Indian friends. But when I am getting less and less friends of other races, I am really angry. Each of the races has different strengths and weaknesses. To propel the nation forward, we cannot afford to lose out the contributions of anyone. And yet you make me so lonely that I don't have friends from other ethnic groups. That really frustrates me. When I want to find a sincere and trustworthy manager for my field, my Malay friends ignore me; when I want to do some high-end design and scientific research, my Chinese friends are all overseas; when I want to get my Indian friends to defend myself from a lawsuit, they are nowhere to be found but busy defending tonnes of sedition lawsuits.

Hope that one day you will understand that we have the best combinations of human resources in the world, and yet you don't treasure it to the extent of threatening it with keris-flying. I only care whether my descendants can still make friends with Malays, Chinese and Indians.

And I really don't care who becomes my boss, whether 16 September will get realized or not, as long as my boss cares for what I care for. And if you really care, then you will be my boss forever, whoever you are.

Reproduce from (http://mt.harapanmalaysia.com/2008/content/view/11931/84/)

"One Kampung, One Very Own Dream"

2008-08-22T13:23:00.005+08:00

There is a place in this world called 'Kampung' settlement which is situated in the South-East Asia. This is a very special settlement.

Some of the residents in this 'kampung' are very protective towards this settlement that they live in. They feel very comfortable living here.

There is no competition, no challenge; there is no failure, and of course there is no success.

They live a simple live, do some assembly work(proton), eat some mee goreng, drink some coffee using 'duit kopi'. Everything is so wonderful here.

Therefore, they are wary about those 'outsiders' who try to enter their 'kampung' and disrupt their harmony life.

So, very often, you will see a signboard sticking outside the 'kampung' which sounds like this: "NO ENTRY--AUTHORISED KAMPUNG-IST ONLY".

All the 'kampung' people always think that they are the special one which nobody else can surpass them. They are always the best, the champion and always 'Boleh!'. Whatever happening outside the 'kampung', they don't know and wouldn't care to know.

This 'kampung' also has 1 very unique university. This university only has students from this 'kampung' (kampungist) only since very long time ago.

But if you try something funny by suggesting that the university opens up to accept other types of students, even only 10%, you will get into very deep trouble.

You will be called 'The Traitor'; then you will see the 'kampungist' having demonstration against your suggestion; after that there will be some 'kampung' heroes(YB) trying very hard to use the kampung law to put you in jail.

No matter how influential you are in this world, you still couldn't enter into the 'Kampung'. Not even the famous Avril who just wants to entertain them while earning a living. Worst still, she is ridiculously labelled as "Too Sexy".

What does "too sexy" trying to portray? Maybe they are trying to tell the outside world to be careful of 'kampungist' because they use thier lower part of the body to think.

The 2008 Olympics Games slogan sounds like this: "One World, One Dream".

While all the YB pulling the very rare kampung-born Olympics silver medalist all around for the coming election, I wonder whether the Olympics slogan hits the 'kampungist' head or not.

What I do know is that the neighour of 'Kampung', the Lion City is realising the slogan really well. Mr. Lee of Lion City said that due to the fierce competition, Lion City no longer depends on its own citizens to develop. As long as you have talents, the Lion City will welcome you warmly. Mr. Lee also comforted the citizens of Lion City not to worry about the incoming outsiders because they need them in all aspects.

Lion City is really good in attracting talents.

I don't know how the 'kampungist' feel when they hear this. For me, it's like giving them a big slap on the face. Maybe next time when they try to question the loyalty of those who left the 'Kampung' for the better, they would have to think twice.

The 'Kampung' is going to celebrate its 51st Birthday in the coming week. Let us just wish that the 'Kampungist' will try very hard to move away from the slogan "One Kampung, One Very Own Dream".

Thank You and Goodbye

2008-08-18T23:27:00.002+08:00

ACCA Examination Result is out!

Not really anticipating it, and there were not much surprise.

A VERY BIG THANK YOU to Mr. Geoff Cordwell for his kindness of letting me stay under him for 1 more bloody semester.

And A VERY SAD GOODBYE to Mr. Alan Lewin as well as Mr. Antony Head due to our separation. May we meet each other again in Heaven if both of you and I could manage to reach there.

Anyway, congrats to all that did well!

写在仙剑4通关数日后

2008-08-18T15:40:00.007+08:00

仙剑奇侠传4通关好多天了, 这一次并没有所谓的多结局或完美结局, 就单单一个结局. 看完通关画面, 有淡淡的的感伤和沉沉的压抑感. 看着窗外的景象,反而觉得现实世界不那么真实了.

我并不是从第一代的仙剑玩起的. 第一次玩的是仙剑3, 不眠不休的在朋友--德楠的电脑折腾了三天才通关, 遗憾的是那时打到的并不是完美结局. 从此, 迷上了RPG, 尤其是仙剑, 陪伴着我成长, 里头的爱恨情仇潜移默化的影响我的感情观.

月如与灵儿的无畏无私, 逍遥的不羁......

苏媚与小虎.....

景天与雪见,龙葵.....

天河,菱纱与梦璃.....

云天河常说:"我命由我, 不在于天."

事实真的是那样吗?

天命的强势与压倒性的力量几乎贯穿剧情始终。而我们的角色不得不一次次的，怀着最初的美好信念而奔走，做出自己的选择，而终于只是到达了那个似乎是最悲惨的结果，这一命运的每一步，都是自己亲手写下的.

天河在禁地见玄霄是开端，最终决定找寻三寒器，而更远的因是在青峦峰菱纱捡起望舒的那一刻，更是在天河父母与玄霄最初在昆仑山上的那一刻.

在游戏中，我有时简直在怀疑编剧的用心不良，他在一次次让人物说出“我命由我, 不由天”的同时，又让我们看到命运是如何不可违抗，逝去的过往是怎样的不可挽回.

这让我想起曾经看过的古希腊, 关于俄狄浦斯(Oedipus)的故事. 同样的为了摆脱命运--德尔菲（Delphi）神殿的神谕说他会弑父娶母，同样是至亲至爱的最终离去，同样是忍受神的意志的安排，甚至俄狄浦斯受到天罚而双目失明的结局都在云天河身上发生了。古希腊的神话中总是在讲述人反抗诸神和命运的战斗，从而拥有强大的悲剧力量，仙剑四中因为有这样的影子而显得深沉。

所以, 无论我把主角的等级练到99, 无论在游戏的过程中，我搜集多少灵药，有了多少钱，买了多少武器......

最终，菱纱还是会死，梦篱还是要走，天河还是会瞎，紫英还是会满头白发，归邪还是会被杀，怀朔还是会被同门害死，璇矶还是死在怀朔的屋前，玄霄还是会成魔.

游戏也终究会结束，而我，却什么也改变不了！游戏就像人生一样，都是安排好的，过程中或许有相识、团聚、共游天下的喜悦，却也有离别的悲伤和无法改变命运的无奈。

命运似乎总是占了上风.

但是, 我总想, 像菱纱那样勇于向命运作出挑战。而有勇气的生命，注定是精彩的，可歌可泣的！

然而，勇于挑战命运，犹未是最高的勇气，乐于笑对命运，才是真正的超越.

我一直在想，在一个人历尽沧桑之后，他该以一种怎样的态度来看待过去，面对人生。在古代，有流落市井的，有自嘲后悔的，有隐居避世的，有至死不屈的。

在通关结局的剧情里, 天河最后竟还是笑了, 在经历了生离死别, 诸多的爱恨情仇后.

天河的笑使我对赤子之心有了新的认识.

故事结束了，但是它带给我的感触是如梦般的. 不知为什么总是忘怀不了那红色的倩影，蓝色的忧郁; 忘怀不了即墨的花灯, 忘怀不了最后定格的凄美画卷…

恍若梦未醒......不如笑归红尘去,共我飞花携满袖......

p/s: This is a review of the chinese RPG game I played recently. Couldn't blog in English.

The Month Of August

2008-08-09T22:28:00.003+08:00

This few days, I was busy completing a Chinese RPG Game. So basically I was just sitting in front of com whole day. lol. Will blog about it later.

These few days, there are few incidents which will made August a happening month.

1. Olympics!
Yesterday was the start of this sports carnival. I managed to catch a glimpse of the opening ceremony thru the Astro provided in 'Rock Cafe', but not patient enough to wait until Malaysia to come out. Checked the scoreboard just now and China is leading with 2 golds. Well, I have strong belief that China could emerge as champion due to host advantage. Besides, if this sports carnival come out to be a successful one, it surely will raise China's reputation. Western forces will not be the only 1 influence the world. US and gangs will have to come up with more ideas to put a curb on it. China's stock market maybe their next target.

2. Resign of Wan Azizah as MP of Permatang Pauh!
Everyone know Anwar needs to enter the parliment to carry out his 'Sept 16' plan. So, Wan Azizah resigned to give way to her husband for the “New Dawn for Malaysia”. Permatang Pauh has been a fortress for Anwar since 1980s. Well, I admire Azizah's courage and her bravery because no matter how you see it, it is still a gamble for letting go a post which is already in hand for re-election, eventhough this is a low risk gamble. Indeed, it needs much courage and confidence. Because nobody can be sure what will happen next. Nevertheless, I believe all Malaysian will remember her as the first female leader of the opposition party in parliment. Wan Azizah, a politician arised after 'Reformasi', her perserverance will always stay in our heart.

3. Anwar was charged!
To charge, or not to charge, that is the question. Well, the question was solved now, after much hoo-haa, real and fake medical report, and disappearing act, as usual. And they managed to solve on time, which is way before the nomination and re-election. But the way they solved the question is a bit, err... funny I would say. Surprisingly, Anwar was charged under 377B, and not 377C which being claimed previously. And this wave of attack gives a big headache to the lawyer on Anwar's side. Hahaha. What does it mean? From my level of knowlegde, I only know that it means Anwar and his partner both like 'sotongmee', and they eat 'sotongmee' together, willingly. Yeah, I mean willingly. Funny right? It's like you kena sued for 'visiting' your friends in Chow Kit or Geylang. So, beware!!!! You dunno when your 'friend' will suddenly sue you!

4. Forum on conversion to Islam
"I maybe disagree with what you said, but I respect your right to speak up."
I forget who mention this phrase before, but this is definitely not true in malaysia. About 200 protesters demonstrating against the Bar Council's forum on "Conversion to Islam" on Saturday morning in Kuala Lumpur. This created another big hoo-haa with some petrol bomb. Surprisingly, our 'brave' and 'dedicated' police are not capable to withstand these protesters or chase them away as what they usually did previously, eg in Cheras. As a result, the forum was ended early at 10 a.m.
I seriously dunno what they are angry of, or should I say, what are they afraid of? In the end, it is just a forum. I don't believe any religion is that weak until it will be threatened by a small forum, which comprised of representatives from different religion (including Islam) of different views. And the thing is those protesters don't even really know what is going to be discussed in the forum! Where are the mutual understand and communication much needed by a multi-racial country? Or they think the only way to communicate is through brutal force?

August, an interesting month!

Looking Back

2008-07-31T23:13:00.006+08:00

July of 2008 is coming to an end.

Time flies, as much as I want to get hold of it.

Because of that, I always hope that I have a time machine, for me to travel back to the past.

To find back those memories; To make up for all the regrets; Or just to find a harbour of refuge.

Seems very impossible? Nah, I have a strong belief in the scientists that we have in this world. At least, currently, we got this thing called 'photograph' which can be used as a tool to store precious moments.

Personally, I prefer to just keep these memories in my mind rather than just relying on photos which is perishable. But then I realised that my memory is not that good as I thought. Besides things that I trying hard to forget, I am losing quite a lot of others too.

Especially those IAS that I precious very much now.

But thanks to Wei Han, those photos that he uploaded on Facebook are much useful to me.

My very noob face 5 years ago...

my noob face 4 years ago...

The VS anthem, The VS cheers, Kluang-didas, Mr. Maran, Mr. Chia, Mr. Oh....

Interact Club, Touch, Community Service in Bandipur....

Camping in VH comp lab, checking out on opposite block, bridge whole day+night, the famous 1-Minuto....

All these are coming back to me now.

And most importantly, the VS SPIRIT that I thought I have lost it quite a while ago.

Well, it is not a bad thing to look behind occasionally.

As for now, I am feeling rejuvenated, again.

Mercedes-Benz E200 vs Proton Perdana V6

2008-07-25T01:27:00.008+08:00

Now only I know that 'Mechanic' is a profession that could make you becoming a millionaires in just a few years, say like 4 years.

How do I know?

16 Proton Perdana V6 maintenance fees for 4 years is approximately RM1.17 mil
1 Proton Perdana V6 maintenance fees for 4 years = RM 73458
Thus, 1 Proton Perdana V6 maintenance fees for 1 year = RM18365

The above estimates come from the Terengganu State Government.

Therefore, it seems that we shouldn't blame the Terengganu State Government for spending RM3.43mil for 14 E200 Mercedes-Benz.

It is not because they have too much money from the petroleum tax until they dunno how to spend it.

It is also not because Proton Perdana is not classy enough for them to show off their superiority.

It is because Mercedes-Benz being an export car is SAFER, BETTER FUEL & MAINTANENANCE SAVING AND BETTER QUALITY than Proton Perdana V6.

So, when we are paying RM0.78 more for petrol, we are actually contributing to the "Protect The Safety of Government Officials Funds".

Well, everyone, including 3 year-old-kid, know that Mercedes is better than Perdana.

What we dunno is that whether Perdana is as bad as being claimed by the Terengganu Government Officials.

If that is the case, I would be worried of all the users of Proton in Malaysia, including few of my friends for driving such a low quality and unsafe national cars. Even Perdana V6, the most superior product of Proton, is so problematic, what more can we expect from the other products of Proton? How demoralizing is it for most of the Malaysian who are driving Proton cars currently?

Well, as a Malaysian, we always have the 'Don't Always Believe What The Government Said' policy. This is because Government always treat the people as if we are a 'dumb-dumb', or they really think that we are dumb enough to believe all their nonsense.

Yearly maintenance of RM18365 for a car? What bullshit is this!

You think you are repairing a spaceship meh?

They must have thought that we forgot about the 'amazing' 5 Year Warranty provided by Proton for every Proton cars.

Maybe they want to announce to the world that 'Malaysia Boleh' in creating Guiness Record of "The Most Expensive Maintenance Fee" for car category.

Now, we are waiting for the special committee of Anti-Corruption Agency to investigate this matter and see what kind of report we can get from this committee.

As for me, I am extremely interested in how the accountants prepares the Financial Statement of Terengganu. On what basis did they use to charge depreciation and maintenance expense for non-current asset? It will help me to understand the concept of 'creative accounting' better.

The Romance Of 3 Parties

2008-07-22T14:57:00.018+08:00

This few days, people around me is talking about John Woo's new film, "Red Cliff". The production expenses of this film is record-breaking among the chinese movies.

And of course, why this film attracts me is because of:

I haven't got the chance to watch it in cinema yet but I promised myself that I would watch it one day. (You wouldn't care whether I watch it in cinema or on Pirated-DVD, would you?)

Well, even if I am that broke until I have no money to buy P-DVD, I still can enjoy watching a Malaysian-Production Movie which has a similar storyline. The movie is called "The Romance of 3 Parties".

CAO CAO=Badawi-- VS --LIU BEI=Anwar --VS --SUN QUAN=Nik Aziz

For those other races who dunno the history of 3 kingdoms and the characters named above, I am sorry but you will have to bear with me. For chinese, please return to Mars/Ulu Place/watever u call it. The world is too dangerous.

1st Similarity

History: LIU BEI(刘备) and CAO CAO (曹操) are comrades of The Rebel Army to fight against DONG ZHUO(董卓). LIU BEI then separated with CAO CAO and created his own forces with the aim of conquering ZHONG YUAN (Mainland of China).

Now: Anwar and Badawi are both members of The BN to 'develop' Malaysia. Anwar then being sacked from BN and the 'Black-eye-incident' happened. After that, Anwar created his own political party, PKR, with the help of his wife.

2nd Similarity

History: Before LIU BEI build up his forces and has his own land, he was attacked by CAO CAO several times. As a result, LIU BEI's family and his brothers GUAN YU & ZHANG FEI had a very difficult time then.

Now: Before PKR and gang won a few states in the last general election, BN with help of the Royal Police Force had caught a few members from the opposition parties and ISAed (verb) them accordingly for some unknown(ridiculous) reasons. Famous incident: Operation Lalang.

3rd Similarity

History: After CAO CAO had conquered the northen part of the China, he then aimed the southern part of China. In order to resist CAO CAO, LIU BEI and SUN QUAN(孙权) had formed an alliance. Therefore, in year 208, the famous "Battle of Red Cliff" occurred. In this battle, CAO CAO suffer a very heavy loss.

Now: After the BN had ruled (exploited) Malaysia for half a decade, the people had suffered enough and decided that it is the time to have a change. Therefore, in year 2008, the famous "Tsunami 308" occurred. In the last general election, BN suffered a very heavy loss under the attack of the alliance of opposition party of PKR and PAS and of course the reddish DAP.

4th Similarity

History: After the battle at Red Cliff, LIU BEI's force had strengthen and was becoming greater as time went by. This made both CAO CAO and SUN QUAN very worried. Therefore, CAO CAO and SUN QUAN decided to combine forces and attacked LIU BEI together.

Now: After the Tsunami 308, PKR seems to be getting stronger with Anwar wanting to enter into parliament, the 916 prophecy and so on and so forth. This made both BN and PAS very worried. Therefore, BN and PAS has been conducting meeting and conversation lately to discuss the issue of 'Uniting Malays in Malaysia' (lame)*. But what is behind the curtain, we really don't know. Especially with Anwar of PKR now in 'deep' trouble.

*(I feel it is lame not because i am a racist or having some evil thought, it is because I feel that it is very pointless to talk about this now as we are now heading towards globalisation. So, we should stand together as the citizen of the world. Plus, the most important issue now is inflation due to economic slow down and the damn rising oil price. Come on! Grow up and stop being so shallow minded! Ok, a bit emotiional i think. haha.)

See the similarities?

This proves that Malaysia is also capable of making a movie with fantastic storyline which can be compared with John Woo's film. 'Malaysia Boleh' or not?

Of course, 'The Romance Of 3 Parties' hasn't ended yet. Therefore, sit back, relax and continue to enjoy the remaining of the movie. God knows what will happen next?

Multiple Choice Questions (MCQ)

2008-07-21T08:03:00.009+08:00

Association of Certified Charted Malaysian (ACCM)

The Ultimate Professional Level

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Exam Time: A Few Minutes

Exam Source: Contribution from tyTay of Sin Chew Daily (http://www.sinchew-i.com/commentary/published/date/20080719/5)

Instruction: This paper being the last paper of the syllabus, will contain 12 questions dealing with science, economic, legal and social issues that everyone is wondering about recently. This is to prepare you to be a qualified Malaysian. Please read the question carefully before answering the question.

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Q1. What is the period of validity of a DNA?

A. 1 Day

B. 1 Year

C. 10 Years

D. Forever

Q2. Why is a new DNA required?

A. The old DNA has expired

B. The old DNA was lost

C. Don't know how to use the old DNA

D. The old DNA might be someone else

Q3. What is the use of "STATUTARY DECLARATION"?

A. If you believe it, then it is the truth; if you don't then it is rubbish

B. See whether the police believe it or not

C. It is of no use at all

D. Depends whether it is the 1st one or the 2nd one

Q4. What is the outcome of issuing a STATUTORY DECLARATION?

A. Being sued

B. Being protected

C. Missing in action

D. Being granted a long vacation

Q5. What is the HIGH RISK occupation in Malaysia?

A. Politician

B. Private Detective

C. Blogger

D. Photographer

Q6. Why ANWAR was arrested earlier than he should be?

A. He wanted to run away

B. The police and SWAT is rushing to have lunch

C. The police and SWAT is rushing to let Anwar eat curry rice

D. Due to traffic jam

Q7. Why there is traffic jam?

A. To encourage the people to use LRT, KTM, PUTRA, RAPID......

B. The Profit After Tax of Petronas increases, therefore encourage the people to spend more

C. To prove that during traffic jam, IMPORT CAR (eg. Ferrari) and NATIONAL CAR (eg. Proton) are similarly slow in speed.

D.To prove that the police is indeed doint their jobs.

Q8. What is inside the mind of the drivers during the traffic jam?

A. Don't dare to drive anymore

B. Feel that the police force is super diligent

C. Wanting to join the Demonstration

D. Hope that the next General Election is coming soon

Q9. What is the lesson learnt after the debate between Anwar & Shabery?

A. Understand the hard reason behind the increase of petrol price

B. Understand why petrol price shouldn't increase

C. Should pay heed to the manners when talking

D. Should be careful of the saliva when talking

Q10. What is the feeling of Malaysian after the debate?

A. Very Brave

B. Very 'CHAM' (pathetic)

C. Goodbye, Minister

D. Why Mahathir was not invited to attend this debate

Q11. Who should answer children asked the meaning of "SODOMY"?

A. Parents

B. Inspector-General of Police

C. Attorney General

D. Minister of Education

Q12. If the children asked about SODOMY, it shows:

A. they can be police

B. they can be Attorney General

C. they can be politician

D. they are fated to born as a Malaysian

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END OF QUESTIONS

Miscellaneous

2008-07-19T00:00:00.003+08:00

Lesson of the day:

Which animal is related to the word 'horny'?

The answer is.......

GOAT!

This is the proven scientifically by 21st Century!

This is the product I saw on the shelves when visiting Watson today.

Cool huh?

Therefore, if u wanna say someone is horny, the simile that u can use is "AS HORNY AS A GOAT".

p/s: I really wonder what is the use of this product to human and what will happen if anyone drink it. Can anyone tell me?

2 Info That I Learned Today

2008-07-14T07:57:00.008+08:00

14.07.08.

Today is kind of a memorable day.

Not because it is a nice number for TOTO/Magnum 4D. And of course I don't buy those.

Today, don't know for what reason, I woke up surprisingly early, like 4 a.m. in the morning. And I don't have a class today. I was thinking of going back to sleep again but then I realised since the state I am staying now has changed its government for like 4 months, I thought of giving my lifestyle a change too.

And this is not a bad idea as I finally managed to nudge Evelyn which I seldom get the chance due to the time zone difference. Lol.

We did some catch up and later on she gave me 2 pieces of info. I admit that my level of info is a bit lagging because I rarely touch newspaper recently, so some of you out there might have already known them.

1st INFO.
Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi has decide that he is going to resign as Prime Minister in 2010, after much debate on wheter he should resign or not.

I kind of believe that it is a wise choice for him to step down before the next general election. Because he will be stepping down when BN is still exploting, err... no, I mean ruling the country. Maybe he couldn't face it if BN were to lose again like the 12th General Election. Maybe it is time for him to stay at home and spend more time with his new wife.

Therefore, I believe he sincerely wanting to step down when 2010 comes.

However, there are people who don't think so.

An example would be our beloved EX-Prime Minister, Tun Dr. Mahathir. He claimed that it is a 'sweet candy' given to Dato Seri Najib for him not to challenge for the President post in the coming UMNO election, which the real situation is that Badawi has no intention to give PM post to him at all (deepest apology as Gelaran and Full Name ignored after this coz tooooo longgg).

"Gula-gula diberikan kepada Dato Seri Najib bahawa dianya juga dikehendaki bebas daripada cabaran untuk Timbalan Presiden........ Najib akan dijanji peralihan kuasa akan dibuat pada 2010. Sebelum sampai tarikh keramat ini tuduhan akan dilempar terhadapnya supaya dia ternampak tidak lagi layak untuk menjadi Timbalan Perdana Menteri.Seorang yang dianggap lebih setia kepada Dato Seri Abdullah akan menggantinya. Pengganti tidak akan ambil alih jawatan Perdana Menteri pada 2010 kerana kurang pengalaman. Dato Seri Abdullah akan bermurah hati untuk mengisi jawatan itu hingga Pilihanraya Umum ke-13."
(100% genuine copy from Mahathir Blog-http://test.chedet.com/che_det/. Not I say 1 ok.)

Is this familiar to you?

Well, I am sure it is for Mahathir because that is a tactic which he used like free. And as a result, uduring his ruling time, there are like 3/4? DPM under him. In the end, he chose the 'loyal' Badawi as the final candidate as his successor. But it turns out that Badawi is not that 'loyal' in the end, maybe because of the cancellation of all the previous Mahathir's 'Big Project', so we can see the 'Mahathir Bomming Badawi Show' almost everyday now.

I am not a politician, and I don't really understand politic. So I don't really know the real meaning of all the tactics used by our beloved politicians. But what I know is that shouldn't politicians be those who are busy trying to set out plans to develop the country? Shouldn't the next PM be chosen in an fair election based on qualities?

I don't know. I think it is either they have too much time after attending the routine Parliment meeting or I am just too naive to see all the things behind this.

Change to 2nd INFO.
Malaysia is going to have 太监！Correct me if I am wrong, I think the English word for it is Eunuch. I swear that I could see the sinister smile on Evelyn's face when she was telling me this. The origin of this info is from our YB Dato Dr. Ng Yen Yen. Due to the increasing rate of rape cases, she suggested that castration should be put on those who are convicted for raping. She hopes that this will serve as a warning to those potential rapers out there.

Wow! This is cool man! After such a long time, Malaysia is going to continue the tradition which China had stopped century ago after the fall of Qing Dynasty to revolution. This again proves the 'Malaysia Boleh' theory. Of course, there were much commotion and discussion about this after she had made the statement, as usual, like what Malaysian always say, 'Biasalah'.

However, castration punishment is much similar to the punishment laid under Islamic Law which PAS is hoping so much to implement it in Malaysia. It is because if I am not wrong, those who steal will be chopped off their hand if they are convicted. So I wonder whether the logic of thinking of YB Dato Dr. Ng Yen Yen of BN is linked to PAS.

But I am still interested on who is going to execute the punishment. Maybe those executor will need to be sent for training under Dr. Ng Yen Yen. She is a doctor mah!

And oh yea, the greatest benefit of me getting up early today is that I found a Malay stall which sells RM1 meehoon in Sunway while going jogging just now. Lol. Oklah. I am just being ignorant. Because the stall is there for like long time ago.

And I managed to catch the sunrise today. So for those who threaten me 看不到明天的日出！a.k.a cannot see the sunrise tomorrow, it is just too bad. Hehe!

HANCOCK & JACKASS

2008-07-13T03:00:00.010+08:00

Out of the blue, I went to watch HANCOCK with 4 friends and 1 not-so-friend.

Didn't expect to watch it because i noe it is a commercial movie and i noe Will is not getting together with Charlize in the end thru some movie review.

I went into the cinema with the thought of it being a comedy, and prepare to lol.
And indeed i get a good laugh in the 1st half of the movie with all the non-usual kind of superhero behaviour, always drunk and set himself to destruction mode even though he is indeed saving the world; acting like an enemy of the states rather than being a hero.

My opinion of Hancock was that he is a superhero but also a human being. He will feel depressed of not being understood; he will get mad at times; he will drink when he is feeling lonely, and yes, he is lonely.

The difference between him and all the other previous superheroes is that Hancock is straightforward and so he doesn't know how to put on a mask to hide his trueself from the normal human being. He doesn't have an black underwear put on his head; doesn't have a blue-red uniform which he claimed as gay (although later he gave in anyway by wearing a tight black suit). But maybe he doesn't know how to pretend and act differently in front of the public, he is hated. And because he doesn't get recognition from the public, he behaves in such manner.

That was my opinion at first.

The 2nd half of the story proved me wrong. Or should i say from the moment i saw the way Hancock looked into Mary's eyes, I knew there must be something between them. I then thought that it must be Mary who dumped him after he lost his memory and left him with juz 2 movie tickets.

But again, I am wrong. Or should i say it is not that simple.

The truth is that superheroes like Mary and Hancock (a.k.a Angel) were created in pairs. They had natural attraction between each other. However, after they got happily ever after, their superpower will also slowly decrease until they become normal husband and wife. (Just like the Chinese ancient legend, Gods were not supposed to have feeling of love and affection towards another. If they do, they will be sacked down to earth from heaven, losing their godstrength and immortality.) All the other superheroes had chosen to become normal human being, left with only Hancock and Mary. It is because eventhough Hancock are losing his superpower by getting together with Mary, he couldn't let go of his responsibility as superheroes and kept fighting against the dark forces which put them into a lot of danger and being hunt down by bad people.

I began to realise the reason why Mary chose to left Hancock after he lost his memory. She knew Hancock couldn't stop helping to save the world and their love with just brought up more pain and danger. So she left and endure the pain of not being together with the love one all by herself, in exchange for letting Hancock to continue to save the world. This also explains why Mary was always nearby with Hancock wherever he was. She could not forget him and had chosen a different way to love him.

But Mary underestimated their over 3000-year-love.

Though Hancock lost his memory, deep in his heart, he knew he had someone he loved. But he couldn't remember who was she. And so he put his frustration to the normal human being around him.

The mystery of Hancock being 'Jackass" or 'Handcock' or 'Handjob' was solved.

Actually, superheroes/god are born with blessing by the Great Creator. They could choose either live happily ever after as normal couples or being an immortal having godstrength. But because Hancock could not let go of his love towards Mary, this blessing turned out to be a curse. And Hancock & Mary lived with this curse for over 3000 years.

Sincerely, I was touched by their love and also pity their faith at the same time.

Hancock loves Mary so much that he had to leave her this time in order to save her life, and his also. He could just die on the spot with Mary and both of them will have eternal love, but he didn't.

When I saw him struggling to get up after he jumped down from the window, I knew he had finally made a decision. He had chosen to let Mary revived by putting aside his 3000-year-old love, forfeiting his rights of being together with the loved one as normal human being.

Maybe he finally realise that true love not only can bring them together, true love also can be beyond distance, time and dimension.

At the ending, when I saw him in that black tight suit, I felt very uneasy.

Not because he looked gay in that, but because I could clearly see the deep loneliness written all over his face, although he had a dog and a moon with red heart painted on it then.

p/s: Until now, i am still thinking whether if both of them die together is a better ending.

你听见了吗？

2008-07-09T22:05:00.002+08:00

曾几何时，我认为Blogging是专为寂寞与无聊的人而设的。
所以，是的，我很寂寞。它总是在夜深人静的时候出没，还蛮缠人的。
为了与之抗衡，最近烟也抽得频，因为听说那朦胧烟雾能把寂寞给赶走。
呵呵，看到这里，你应该会翻白眼，然后说我又再瞎掰了吧！
我想，应该是你的关系，我才会那么的爱瞎掰吧！
不为什么，只因为我很享受看你翻白眼的样子。

距离上一次给你写信至今似乎过了很久，不知你过得怎样呢？
一定是过得很好吧！我也一样过得很好，因为这是我们的约定。
所以我堂堂男子汉大丈夫，是不可能违约的！

也许你会奇怪为什么我会写这些东西吧！
嘿嘿，因为我怕你也会像我一样在夜晚时突然很寂寞啊。
所以，我想，如果你感到寂寞的话，到这里转转，听我瞎掰，也应该不错！哈哈！

还记得“今生只爱你10年”这篇文章吧？
还记得你第一次看到这篇文章时哭得像个大花猫似的，
然后还傻乎乎的不停问我这是真实的故事吗？
我当时还真被你搞得头昏脑胀。

今天，有朋友转发这篇文章给我的信箱。
重读一遍，感触比上一次来的更多。
看到最后一段“我记得你十年，想你用十天，来生还你一辈子！”，
我的心被狠狠地揪了一下。
我想，完了吧，今天的心情又变糟了，虽然今天就只剩下那两个小时。

我终于深刻了解到那情怀，也明白为什么那时的你看了这篇文章会哭得那么厉害。
所以，我承认，那时的你应该比我感性的多，成熟的多。
怎样，给你赢一次，开心了吧？

十年，一个不是很长的时间。
不知十年后的我会怎么样呢？
不过，你放心，我一定会让你知道的。
只要你常到这转转。
所以，希望你能常来，好吗？

今晚，我应该会早些睡，因为明天有Menon的课，我不想再打瞌睡然后被她骂了啦！
我想你应该也是时候来看我了吧！
我等你！